anxiety

dear @Former-Member

Its okay: @Former-Member

It feels like you dont need to worry about anything except getting through the next few days.

Could you feel your two feet on the ground for yourself.........

@hiddenite s creativity....i must read that wo derful message again myself

Night night sweet dreams

@Former-MemberYou are sounding aware, responsible and sensitive to what is going on and that takes STRENGTH, Do you have anyone going in with you. Are the kids in a court babysitter or at kindy? Its huge what you are doing so of course your feelings are intense.

They say that process is more important. Andre Agassi used to say it doesnt matter if he wins or loses, he just gives each shot his best shot.

Good luck.Beautiful Cowgirl

waiting waiting waiting at home still... they're calling me when i need to go in because of all the legal arguments that go first etc so its just panic, breathe. wait, panic, breathe wait.. i just want to get in and start... i know that i always cope better once things are going than all this thinking about it. i have a bag with a colouring book in it and a book to read and water and nuts to take with me. i've been for a walk this morning. i bought myself an elephant teeddy because elephants are my favourite but i dont think i'll take it with me, the security guards check through you bag at the door lol. breathe!

lj

Hi @Former-Member,

You are doing lots of good things and showing strength and resilience. Another 'micro-exercise' I do sometimes is to just mentally check in on my body and see if I can feel where the tension is mainly being held (for me it's often around my neck, shoulders and chest). Then consciously release the physical tension - taking a deep breath in and breathing the tension out while letting muscles release. I usually do this while sitting. Sending well wishes.

hi @Former-Member

Why dont you ta,e the elephant.

They dont care! Its a job for them they forget what the next bag has in it......

Last court case i had, the policeman picked me up and i brought.......all my pills. I mean......all my pills..........I was on a lot then lol

lol i know... hehe my pills will come with me.. not too many but... lol oh dear! yeah maybe mr elly will come.

I carry alot of anxiety around my neck too, and i just tried that @Mazarita and it really worked! thank you... So i've heard from prosecutor and detective, i start straight off in the morning. So im just going to relax for the rest of today (as much as i can) and try and sleep tonight and be ready for tomorrow. I can do this...

lj

ps Thankyou so much for all your messages, it would be so much harder with out you all xx

thank you @hiddenite , Thank you, i hope your visit to the dr went ok today, im glad that you were able to go, well done! take care

LJ

Hi all, I made it through day one. but it was awful and i dont feel like i did very well. i cried in between things but not on camera but i was so shaky my voice sounded shaky. i dont know how im going to get through the cross examination. but im also relieved that its started and that i got through today.

lj

Well done @Former-Member ... you don't need to worry at all about your shaky voice. Majistrates are usually very intelligent people who can tell straight away the difference between complete honest human nature and an act. It will add to the honesty and credabiliity of your testimony.

Unfortunately I have been through the experience of being on the stand before, I know what you are going through, It is definately a very harrowing experience. You will get through though and I know you will be stronger for it.

I wanted to post before you had to testify because I was going to get you to do something, you can do it for the cross examination if you like.

Have a look around you right now and find a pocket sized "trinket", can be anything, anything at all as long as it fits in your pocket or hand if you don't have a pocket.

On the morning of your next appearance, hold it and close your hand and think of all the friends and support that you have here and keep it on you. When/if things get tough, think of it, feel it if you can and that support and love will be with you.

If you have no idea on what to use, open a word document and write down all the names of your friends here, along with all the positives reasons why you are doing what you are doing, then save it to a USB memory stick and use it as your positive little trinket.

I have a question for you, is the prosecutor aware of your MI?

You're doing well lj keep it up!

Matt/WombatBoots