Good Morning!

Thanks @outlander, @Sans911

@Faith-and-Hope,she just had those moments yesterday which came for me out of the blue.

If anything happens to her @Faith-and-Hope,I will be homeless, without a job I have nothing,.My anxiety alone,I decided long ago I won't be attending,I would rather grieve in private.I lost whatcI had through "changing my life through counseling".

She has deteriorated alot in the past six months,I should've been on carers since I moved back last year when she nearly died from gangrous gallstones.

I just escorted her to her car to drive downtown to have coffee with someone,but she's struggling.I worry she will fall over somewhere.She leans on one side,discs are compressed together in her spine.She only needs a bad fall and will need permanent care as she is overweight,I couldn't do her at home.Also worry if she should be driving .

I don't talk to anyone in the family ,got no one I trust,so it overwhelms me.Had distress with emotional pain this morning due to the stress of her.Dont know @Faith-and-Hope,she is a worry at the moment.

If she owns her house @Former-Member, there will be an inheritance in there for you somewhere, so try to park up the worry about being homeless for now. That is for the future, and perhaps you won’t stay in the town you are in if she passes, broadening your prospects.

Try to take it one day at a time, but I hear you .... and I am glad you are telling us what is going on for you. Chin up Hon .... easy does it.

Its my hubby in my case .... blindsided by the changes in him as they have come on .... behaviour, values, physically .... living under phone tracking and cameras and stuff while still trying to reach out for help, and not being believed.

It’s scary .... but just keep taking that next step forward, and I will too.

Hugs ..... 💜

@Faith-and-Hope,in re: to your husband,it sounds difficult,just hope you aren't tolerating abuse no matter what wrong with him.

Last year when she nearly died,there was talk of her leaving the house to me,but I didn't want it.My breakdown was greatly caused by Tuesday I was treated by my mother and family.I built a double garage at the farm,lost money,plus took money out of my super to repay loan repayments when my life collapsed.

@TAB talked to @MDT,about having resilience,I had none either,put everything in my shoulders and wore it,it seared me down and destroyed me.

As mentioned,my mother never let me live my life, always made me feel guilty if I went out on my own etc.I gave up my life and gave up on me finally @Faith-and-Hope.Shouldnt be on here today,the stress and tiredness of yesterday has caused emotional pain and distress.I don't know how you handle your husband and your kids needs @Faith-and-Hope.