You know @Jacques ive been thinking of you writing how horrified your Grandparents would be that you 'havent made anything of yourself......'
I guess this is something that i struggle with and maybe others.
Can you think of positive things in your life, something that maybe other people will not know but you do?
Like your Mum and you? I seem to remember a message that @Chris sent you, that your Mum may find great happiness in you being you.....am i right,?
(It was @Chris, wasnt it?)
Probably no one i can think of is going to be remembered as a good say...whatever your job is.... or anything in 100 years time.
My Grandparents in America, in the 30s and 40s, would represent people who others wouldn't. They both began the first legal aid like organization for men on death row. Of course, theres nothing written about them, but mum has told me some good cases they won.....somewhere, i have a couple of letters a couple of men in jail wrote them. Their work as lawyers was fantastic.
Theres nothing written about them and their legal achievements.They were terrible parents and Grandparents.
But i read of amazing people on this site, fighting to be better people ....better parents.....better role models.
Yeah, who's gonna remember me?
If i sit still and take a deep breathe.......iv'e broken a years old line of crazy jewish women on my mother's side, by staying home and focusing on my children when young. That they both ....probably dont want to be anything like me but they listen to me.
Its not much.....they are both adults and dont hear from them so much.....but......when im feeling particularly vulnerable and out of sorts, i can reflect on this.
Maybe one thing that you can reflect on is that your writing on this site is read and read and read. That i can feel that not just me but others like reading them very much. I like your sensetivity and direct concern that you have for others and a couple of days ago, when @Hiddenite and you rediscovered each other, i smiled for a long time. It was great. Im smiling now.
