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Flower back & starting over

Flower back & starting over

Good morning everyone and to my dear friends,

@Former-Member@Appleblossom @Kurra @BlueBay @Determined @utopia @Zoe7 @Queenie @Sahara @Shaz51 @Former-Member

I hope you are okay.

EVERY DAY IS A NEW BEGINNING, TAKE A DEEP BREATH, SMILE, AND START AGAIN.

The past 12 month have definitely been a game changer for me. Although it's been over two years of starting to discover - step by step - my mental health issues and coming to terms with the effect my childhood and other trauma had on my mental health, the past 12 months changed my life. I was in hospital three times, learnt more than I ever thought I would (want to) learn about mental health and strategies, adjusted my life and in the end finished the career I have always worked for so hard and wanted more than anything else in my life. I've ended relationships and created boundaries. I've started slowly to accept my inner child and that I actually have mental health issues.

And now I start with a clean canvas. A canvas that I will paint on and over for the rest of my life. Layers and layers of acrylic colours. Space for mindmaps to figure out what's really important for me, space for happy memories and for sad ones, but mainly space for the here and now.

I know my post sounds encouraging and hopeful. I am hopeful that my current deep depression will lift and that I will find enthusiasm to start work on that canvas. At the moment I allow myself to rest. Rest from the struggles of the past 12 months. And at times when the fog lifts, I am encouraged to look at the world with different eyes and explore different opportunities.

You have all made a positive impact on my journey and I am sure there are new friends to be made, so I am back and hoepfully this time, here to stay.

Have a great day everyone x

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Morning @Former-Member I haven't read all your posts here but I wanted to say hi and let you know I am thinking of you. It is quite strange that you came back when you did because the night before I was looking for you and realised you weren't around. That made me sad - I love seeing your little meerkat pop up - so very happy you are back I will try and catch up on your posts later today when I am a bit more awake and able to take it in.

Zoe

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Good morning @Former-Member 💕

You poor bugger. I like the idea of how you turn your thoughts into waterfalls and rainbows though. That is very clever
Your very far from worthless and a burden though i understand where your coming from
Im sure your husband love you anyway-for better or for worse right?
Hmmm just a thought- if you can make things like croqchet (i cant spell it) maybe you could make a few things and then donate them to a charity?
Or you could pick a charity and buy sone items for it- just an example but theres a womens charity who accepts like sanitary items and things like that
Maybe you coul make a project out of that?

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Good Morning @Former-Member

I'm definately not a girly girl, particularly not in my later years - now I tend more towards a natural girl 🙂

But I have always loved everything that sparkles and I don't care if it's not gold - in fact I see it as a waste of money to get the real stuff, when a piece of cut glass sparkles just as beautifully 🙂

I think it is the ultimate sign of intelligence to question, we are not sheep, we are supposed to question. I also think it's a sign of healing, to be able to question, what happened, why? There may not be answers, but recognising the questions is a big step.

When I used to paint my fingernails (which was a few decades ago now) I always used glitter polish, in fact there were these little jewels that you put on whilst the polish is drying, then you cover in clear polish and you end up with diamonds on your fingers and toes 😄

Sending you sparkles to pierce the darkness of your days XxX

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hellllo my @Former-Member , it is soo lovely to see you

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Hello @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Sahara @BlueBay @outlander @Zoe7 @Shaz51

Hope you're all fast asleep by now.

I'm awake thinking about hospital and the dream i had of being evaluated by a team of psychs. I just cried yesterday. I have to change. I can't continue this way.

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Good Morning @Former-Member

I think I'd just gone to bed not long before your message came through - so I would have been fast asleep 🙂

I hope you were able to get your thoughts out of your head, and that you got some sleep XxX

I think we all have days where all we do is cry, even those rare people with 'balanced' brain processes.

What things do you like? I like looking at the water, getting out of my back yard. I like movies that step out of reality. I love my child and their family I love my dogs and my cat. I like things that sparkle. I like this forum and all the friends I've made here. I like everything nature, I do believe she's my saviour 🙂 and I like you Flower 😄

Sending you happiness and postive thoughts to help you smile 🙂

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Morning @Former-Member I really hope you finally got some sleep. How are you feeling today?

Hi @Former-Member

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Good Morning @Zoe7 🙂 I hope your smiling as you have given me a smile 🙂 Sending you a gentle hug, with just a little squeeze at the end 😄

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awww @Former-Member Your post gave me a smile - that is so lovely to hear

Any amazing adventures planned for today - or just chillin' at home?

Hugs to you too

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Just chilling @Zoe7, though I just had a bit of a fright. They've recently (last year I think) put up a huge fire alarm in my area (it's a bad spot for fires) and I didn't know there was a drill today. First I heard of it was the alarm going off - twice! I thought it was odd, this is not the fire season, but it is the season for many people to have fires (mainly to keep warm) - and of course I immediately thought one of those fires had gotten out of control. I went out and looked for pillars of smoke, there weren't any, though I could smell it (probably just someones heater). I had no idea this was going to happen, I eventually found out on, of all places, Facebook!

So, I guess that was an adventure for the day 😄

I feel privileged to have been able to give you a smile 🙂 🙂

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