when is it time for hospital

That sounds really good @outlander

I think your mother is a lot kinder to your sisters than she is to you - try and not worry about them - I am sure you will be okay

So although it may not be ideal you have somewhere more peaceful until Thursday of Friday- I am really glad to hear about that

And also - you are getting your breast wound checked again - that's good

I will be going out soon - taking my ingrown toenail down to the doctor - I think I might have to have it lanced - ouch - it doesn't hurt unless I touch it - but then - it hurts a lot

But I will be looking in later

Dec

@Owlunar i really feel for you, i do and i admire the courage you have to keep on keeping on and still being able to love others as you do.

i know im very far from ok Dec, i dont get how they dont see that and them arguing with my health professionals dont helpme one bit either, i should ahve shut my mouth and not agreed to go to hospital becasue then i wouldnt be where i am now.

im glad your ok talking with me but i understand if you pull back- i get it but i do appreciate you being here- i feel a connection with you- you kinda remind me of my nans personality- hard ot explain but im sure you get it

and yes i am doing things off line and if i wrote everything i did well then you would be able to right a book about me. but i am doing things like going to the drs and getting infections checked, seeing a psychologist when ive got the appointment, ive rung the mental health line and in contact with them, im trying to stay out of my house as much as i can, im home now but only until mum gets home or someone who can watch the girls gets home,

im trying to study- ive picked up 2 courses one which is human anatomy and the other is common diseases and how they work, treated prevented etc which theres 4- High BP, common colds and flu, reflux and diabetes. i get a certificate of achievemnt for both of those when i complete them and if i pass them

it doesnt matter how long ago it was im sure its till hard to deal with at the certain times of the year. im hopin you ahd the support you needed and deserve and still deserve as well, and i know the forum family here cares for you- i just cant be on your other thread right now as being in contact with some people distresses me but i am following your thread just so you know and i do care.

yeah i know its not ideal but yes its better than being here atm @CheerBear

yeah im trying to use the days that im ot here to try hard to focus on what i need to do and not the thousand other things that i usually worry about- very hard and im sure you know that but worth a shot i suppose.

and i know CB- go out that hat on and be with LF

yes she is alot better to the m then to me and she supports thm in anything they do, at least i know that if they ever have soemthing wrong with them they would be very well supported and becasue of this its unlikeley they will get MI which is good

and yeah tomorrow i get everything rechecked again- hopefully no swabs though that would be good but i guess if it has to be done its gotta be done- getting use to all this invasiveness now

i hope your gp goes well for you too- will you let me know how you go

Yes - you have done a lot more than I thought you had - I have an adult grand-daughter - she is older than you actually - and she is out on her own now - doing well

So I get it that I am like your Nan and I so care about you -

And you are amazing truly - you are gradually getting it together - there are other things I could suggest but I feel tha the Forum is not the place - but I can be here for you

I will be back in a while - how long do I have to wait for the doctor today? I shall see - but I already have the antibiotics

Keep going - and your sisters will be okay - let your mother rant - she will probably enjoy herself

Back later

Dec

Hello @outlander WOW there's sooo much going on for you right now! Here's another stab in the dark guess - the arguments your Mother and her partner are having with the medical authorities, would not be supporting their case. If anything, the way they are reacting may be helping the Doctors understand your situation. I'm sorry you didn't like your male Psychiatrist, I had the same problem, and mine was a gentle man. There doesn't seem to be many female ones, well not in my area anyhow - I would have to have travelled 4 - 5 hours and paid a high fee (once I finally got to the top of the list).

How did it go with the other horse, the one that could end up being your very own? Though I'm imagining you've just had too much happening to be able to get there. Do you have any Caravan parks in your area, sometimes they can be more affordable, just as somewhere for you to be until you find somewhere more suitable.

Just as Dec says, I can see you getting it together, I can see you gradually working everything out - despite everything against you . . . truly amazing! 🙂

Lots and lots of love to you right now @outlander