when is it time for hospital

@Former-Member you cant help with this can you

Hi @outlander

I'm around this afternoon and can hear that you have lots of feelings and emotions happening for you at the moment.

Do you want to talk some of this out of the forums?

How can the community support you?

Pebbles 🙂

Yeah i dont mind sharing with the other members they often give good insight @Former-Member

I just dont get it. I dont know how i can have soo many emotions. Its making me feel really uncomfortable and its hars to sit with yet i have to because i cant handle much physically or mentally challanging at the moment.
Im all this because of my gp trying to pressure mr into things. And then making me talk about a few things i didnt want to. I hate going. I just eanted something for the pain and then my scripts filled. It was only suppose to be a 10 minute or so session it went for nearly an hour!
And then ive got all these emotions because i cant do anything. Im.not use to it. Im rately home a bow im just sitting around at home. I cant even draw. I cant do anything and its frustrating. Its also because Icant support others on here as i would like to. I read it and think i know what advice i could give to those but i can never write it and post it. And then things at the moment on somr threads really overwhelm me but i want to help and the it makes me feel even worse.

Why didnt i slow down - no i wasnt speeding
@Former-Member why didnt i stall getting in my car. Maybe if i had of gone slower this wouldnt have happened.
Why does my brainhave to relive things every night. Ivr lived it why does it have to keep coming back.

Everything's going haywire inside me and its really not great

@outlander things are sounding very busy and tough for you at the moment. I hear that this isn't the way you want to be and I can appreciate your frustration with being at this point at the moment.

I hear you talking about wanting to slow down in relation to you driving to your drs but I'm wondering if there are anyways you can try and slow down now? Offering yourself acceptance and self compassion. We are often so tough on ourselves. I wonder what you would offer as support to someone else who was telling you this story?

Sorry @Former-Member i shouldve made that more clear.
My slowing down driving was in relation to the accident. Not in general. Im a safe driver generally.

This migraine is so bad!!!!!!!!
Ive taken the new meds i got from the gp
I think it made it worse! !!!

And people in the house arent helping

Im just going to move this convo to here @Sans911 hope you dont mind....

I had a really dreadful night. I was up till 5am. I couldn't sleep through the pain. And the flashbacks i was having on the accident weren't helping. I find if im calmish its abit better. Thankfully these meds are helping. I just hope they last through the night.

Im in bed now just listening to some music and laying on a heat pack for as long as possible. Hopefully ill be alseep soon.
I know i need it to recover pretty horrible that im a chronic insomniac so its hard to sleep even on a good day.

My gp of all things today made me upset and made me bring up things i didnt want to. Abit of the abuse too. I wanst there for that i really just wanted to get my scripts filled and get oain relief and go home.
Shesgood in a way in that she cares and spends more time with me and coordinates with the mh team and psychiatrist. I havent linked her in with my psychologist yet. Not going to. Its prob the wrong choice but i feel like everyone knows everything about me. I just wa t to be able to go there and stay what i need to without thrm having a convo behind my back. It gets abit invasive when everyone constantly rings to check in.
My gp actually said to me today that when she sees my name come up its a relief for her because im still here on this earth.

Yes thankfully i dont have many of my families traits. Many people call me the odd one out because i do things differently. Could be thr bpd and mh issues in there with that though.

Hmm ive got my sisters tomorrow. I dont knoe how well im going to go with that. Then ive got my psych on sunday and also back to work. Im thinking about calling it for anothet few days. Im harldy sleeping and when my migraine comes it comes in full force. Theres no halves for me. Its all or nothing unfortunately


How are you travelling tonight

Omg @Sans911 it would actually be more like 48hrs!
I got up at 7am yesterday and havent slept since! Except for that 1 hr this morning!