when is it time for hospital

Yes and I don't know the answers after 5 years outlander,the stigma is there,at times I wish I got a physical illness because it's more socially acceptable,with mental illness,it's seen as a weakness,a excuse,it's used to project crap on your shoulders like a weapon.I went for a job interview at Cole's a while back,told my disability employment provider I was going,nice girl but in a email she said she would ask the manager how I went.I told her I would rather she didn't,as I like my privacy,and don't like it known I'm with a disability job provider.She rang the Manager,I didn't get the job,I don't know what the good of it was other than my humiliation and right to privacy violated.I like to be seen as normal,and it's no one's business .It won't be easy outlander but I know through the determination you have shown you can do it.

Yes I know outlander,didn't get a call in from Doctor about my foot x-ray so it must be something I have to love with.Had bad weather and haven't walked this week a couple of days,my feet are good when I don't go for a walk,but the exercise agitates the arthritis in them and I have to stop all the time with the left foot....Wish I wasn't stuffed in body,only jobs around full time require medicals which I can't pass.Childhood obesity didn't help,when I see obese kids I get pissed off at their parents....See me.

As for the mind wish I had a stronger mind five years ago against workplace bullying especially that the day before my fortieth,a mind that wanted the body to shut down and go to bed to weather storms,and a mind that was broken by family crap.I wouldn't be in the position I'm in.

Anxiety.Today I had to pay a credit card,I never looked at the statement for two years,just paid the 500 that was my limit but they changed it where I needed the statement to pay it.I was afraid to open it.When I opened it I had anxiety,at the figure over $1770 .I had a attack.I rang up the company in my car,and said how come I was allowed to keep using it as I never gave permission to increase the limit?I was crapping myself ,then was told I have credit of that amount I didn't see the - sign.I had a good shop then.First thing good that happened to me since I can't remember.All the way home,I said to my mother something bad is going to happen.Got home got a $1770 fine for not doing jury duty which they threaten to take from my account.Got no money,rang up.Never knew about it.When I moved away when the farm was sold the notice was sent to my rental address.I now have to, it in evidence showthat I wasn't living there when the notice for jury duty was sent.My good day didn't last long outlander,the bullshit you go through.

Yes I know outlander,didn't get a call in from Doctor about my foot x-ray so it must be something I have to love with.Had bad weather and haven't walked this week a couple of days,my feet are good when I don't go for a walk,but the exercise and weight bearing agitates the arthritis in them and I have to stop all the time with the left foot....Wish I wasn't stuffed in body,only jobs around full time require medicals which I can't pass.Childhood obesity didn't help,when I see obese kids I get pissed off at their parents....See me.

As for the mind wish I had a stronger mind five years ago against workplace bullying especially that the day before my fortieth,a mind that wanted the body to shut down and go to bed to weather storms,and a mind that was broken by family crap.I wouldn't be in the position I'm in.

Anxiety.Today I had to pay a credit card,I never looked at the statement for two years,just paid the 500 that was my limit but they changed it where I needed the statement to pay it.I was afraid to open it.When I opened it I had anxiety,at the figure over $1770 .I had a attack.I rang up the company in my car,and said how come I was allowed to keep using it as I never gave permission to increase the limit?I was crapping myself ,then was told I have credit of that amount I didn't see the - sign.I had a good shop then.First thing good that happened to me since I can't remember.All the way home,I said to my mother something bad is going to happen.Got home got a $1770 fine for not doing jury duty which they threaten to take from my account.Got no money,rang up.Never knew about it.When I moved away when the farm was sold the notice was sent to my rental address.I now have to, it in evidence showthat I wasn't living there when the notice for jury duty was sent.My good day didn't last long outlander,the bullshit you go through.

No outlander,I failed to attend in May apparently,they sent it to my rental addressed I leased for six months,so today they sent the fine to this one ,final notice to pay 1700 fine for not attending.I never knew about it,they found my correct location today but.I should not have trouble getting out of the fine because I wasn't at that address,just have to prove it.