when is it time for hospital

Sending you love @outlander

ok so im able now to read properly through the messeges that were left.

thank you very much! really and truley , i appreciate and its more than what words can express so im hoping you can feel the gratitude through the computer!

and of course you can leave msgs. i can really feel the love as i read them. i have missed you all being here. so so much. and i mustve known you were all with me becasue even without being able to access any technology at all i knew you guys were with me.

@Former-Member@Queenie@Former-Member@Phoenix_Rising@CheerBear@STORMGRL101@eth@Former-Member@Owlunar@Former-Member @Mazarita and everyone else i have unintentionally missed

hi @Former-Member

i was discharged at around 3 oclock this arvo. they were very very good to me and i never would have thought id say it but i really think it was the best place for me to be in. ill write a breif recount over the 5 days i was in there. ill just need a bit of time to ride it.

im still really wobbley on my feet though. i thought i would have better adjusted to coming out here but i guess a week in hospital does take a little bit to find your feet again when you leave.

i havent had any monsters since two nights ago so thats good. ill write how we are all getting along in the recount

hugs @Former-Member

The forum was so quiet without you outlander!

I'm glad you are feeling positive and I hope it gave you a needed break.Hit a kangaroo or wallaby in misty rain tonight cracked a bit of plastic front of my car!Last thing I needed hey?

You have been missed💟

I have missed you my friend! I'm glad that you felt it was the best place for you. And I'm so glad you could feel us all here with you, because we were. And we still are xxx

DAY 1

this is jsut breifly otherwise there is way to much to write

SO MUCH CHAOS!!! and VERY DISTRESSED

my Gp called an ambulance which made me an involuntary patient. I waited at my drs surgery for over an hour for an ambulance. My phone kept ringing and ringing and ringing and a heap of msgs which was making me a lot more distressed than I already was. There was another argument between the bf and my gp which again didnt help me at all. I waited in the observation room at the hospital for 9 hours!!! before I was eventually taken to a MH unit. In the 9 hours I was monitored by security, seen a community psych and then the hospital psych as well. I had a gp come in and ask about general wellbeing and the nurses monitored as well checked bp etc every so often.
As you can imagine there was ALOT of just waiting around and I had no phone or anything when I got to the hospital. I just had enough time to tell mum I was being observed and then transfferred and to get a friend to look after my new horse for me and that wa sit after that I had nothing.
My options were that day were to either coperate and go to hospital or dont cooperate, call secutiy and get taken to hospital. I wanted as little fuss as possible so opted for option one both times I was asked, I pretty muhc had accepted my fate by then. So I got to the MH unit by about 8-9pm, got my meds sorted and done the initial workup and then was shifted off to bed at 10pm.

i also had no appeitie for nearly 48 hours so had no interest in what they were offering me either

DAY 2

this was a more boring day and not something im use to at all! I had my first meal in almost 48 hours as well, it was very little but I suppose better than nothing. I read 10 magazines and did a lot of drawing. I finally got to have a shower but lucky for me I borrwed a hospital gown lol. I was the only one there on friday and saturday and it wasnt until early sunday morning someone else was there besides me. Someone finally brang me up some stuff so I could get changed and wasnt bored out of my mind.
At least I was allowed to use the phones through the day so that was good. People were asking me where I was and how tog et to me and I said I dont know. I didnt and it wasnt until I was discharged I realsied what part of the hospital I was in as I came through the ED.
This night was a lot harder. Everything began to dawn on me in full force of where I was and what I was there for. I had a lot of anxiety this day as well. Again I think everything was beginning to dawn on me. But I was medicated and at least those are sorted now too.

again i was off to bed by 10pm. i watched abit of tv too- well background noise becasue i couldnt mentally concentrate on anything. i sat there for the last two days like a compelte zombie.