when is it time for hospital

everything is failing

i cant seem to win in any aspect

my home tension is still really bad and im sitting here cringing at everything

he psych appointment today was a waste of time. The appointment was suppsoe to go for 45-60 minutes and it only went for half an hour. Didnt even feel like that. Shes pretty much put it bluntly to me that she cant help me until I tell her the full story of the sexual abuse.

I asked for help with the extremeley vivid flashbacks and she just said to use mindfullnes- that was the end of it
then she said is that all youd like to talk about today?

i dont know what to do there

and im scared about tomorrow about what the gps going to say and i dont know what to say about last nights discussion

and i ahd to go get treatment for self harm- i couldnt control it any longer 😞

@eth@Owlunar@Shaz51@Former-Member

Outlander

The point of therapy is basically for you to be able to spill your guts and be able to talk about the sexual abuse theoretically so you can deal with it and stop bottling it up inside.

I don't know if she should've cut it short, could've spent the time getting a rapport with you or getting to know you better.If you aren't happy with her or don't feel comfortable don't stay with her.I don't know outlander I really feel you need to go to hospital just to have a break from that situation.I worry as someone who has been through help that it will let you down like the psychologist today.I placed so much faith in one mh nurse who today on my walk I wished I never met as my faith in him came at a huge price and I worry that will happen to you at the moment because you are in crisis.At the moment being somewhere feeling safe for you is to me is a priority.

Outlander

The point of therapy is basically for you to be able to spill your guts and be able to talk about the sexual abuse theoretically so you can deal with it and stop bottling it up inside.

I don't know if she should've cut it short, could've spent the time getting a rapport with you or getting to know you better.Maybe she felt you were not ready but going by you here you she needed to make sure you were "OK" before you left.If you aren't happy with her or don't feel comfortable don't stay with her.I don't know outlander I really feel you need to go to hospital just to have a break from that situation.I worry as someone who has been through help that it will let you down like the psychologist today.I placed so much faith in one mh nurse who today on my walk I wished I never met as my faith in him came at a huge price and I worry that will happen to you at the moment because you are in crisis.At the moment being somewhere feeling safe for you is to me is a priority.

Outlander

The point of therapy is basically for you to be able to spill your guts and be able to talk about the sexual abuse theoretically so you can deal with it and stop bottling it up inside.

I don't know if she should've cut it short, could've spent the time getting a rapport with you or getting to know you better.If you aren't happy with her or don't feel comfortable don't stay with her.I don't know outlander I really feel you need to go to hospital just to have a break from that situation.I worry as someone who has been through help that it will let you down like the psychologist today.I placed so much faith in one mh nurse who today on my walk I wished I never met as my faith in him came at a huge price and I worry that will happen to you at the moment because you are in crisis.At the moment being somewhere feeling safe for you is to me is a priority.

ive been trying to write it out as best i can but i cant seem to get it out. i freeze and cant move.
itll probably be easier if i find the post i wrote on here, copy and paste it to a word document and show her that way. if i cant even write it how can i say it. i see her next wednesday.
i thought id gone in with a plan today and was actually going to get help but she kept going onto a tangent and i could see she was bored becasue she wasnt really paying that much attention to me and jsut kept fidgeting imatiently @Former-Member@eth@Owlunar

Are you still here @outlander? I can talk til 10.30 when my i'net will be turned off by my family to ensure I get enough sleep. Won't be back on til early tomorrow morning. I'm worried about you and your SH. Wishing you were allowed to talk more about it on here. I would urge you to talk to one of the chat lines tonight. @Former-Member can you help tonight?

There is the mental health team on 1800 011 511 or the SANE chat line or lifeline 131 114 available to you @outlander. I really think you need support tonight.