Grief & loss - may be triggering

Wow @Adge - you are well qualified to work in the Horticulture Industry

It's hard to find work - I am not looking but something I noticed on Friday was interesting

I was looking up shops to buy something on-line - and I saw an advertisement - nearly 500 jobs available - just because I felt interested I looked and all those jobs had been taken

That was briefly disappointing - why not take the advertisement down - that could be a really big downer if someone was looking for work in that area

You are battling with emotionally discomfortant and physical health problems - and it sounds to me as if you are really run-down - it's really hard to get into the work we would prefer when we are stressed and we have to work anyhow - I guess that would be how things are for you.

I wish better for you - perhaps it's hard to get back into that field because you have been out of it for a long time. Have you thought of doing a refresher course? - or are you able to do that?

Dec

Yes @Owlunar, thanks.

You seem to know so much about "chasing one's own tail".

Like an endless loop of just trying to function (especially working), with little energy left to actually get anywhere (or to achieve anything).

I've been out of horticulture for 6 & 1/2 years, & yes it does seem harder with time to get back into it.

Refresher course, yes that's an idea...

The locum Dr finally arrived at 10pm last night - he originally phoned to say he was on his way to me at 6pm. Disrupted late night's sleep, which made me feel worse.

I'm back on antibiotics, after finishing the last course (different one) about 9 days ago.

Adge

Chasing one's tail - yes @Adge - I have done a bit of that in my time

All the best with a refresher course - or even try a little voluntary work at the weekends looking after the garden at a hospital somewhere if you can manage it - it could be hard for you - I understand that - but it's one way of getting a foot in the door

The locum service is often rushed of its feet during the flu season - oh woe is me - I have been through those traps too - but waiting so long is rough - egad - I think they do their best but waiting so long is too long after they said they had a doctor on the way at 6.00pm and takes 4 hours to get their - phew

More antibiotics - I know - I had weeks on them and the packet that worked made me feel really wonky - it took ages it get my appetite back - I hope you are okay

Dec

I found the Grief Study session more energising than draining, this time – perhaps becoming more used to it, with less anxiety about finding my way there (& around the maze of streets in the university).

I have to allow more than enough time for each session, as they’ve all stretched to 2 hours each (when 1 & ½ hours is scheduled).

I texted the MH Support Worker earlier today, asking if it would be possible to postpone our appointments until after the Grief Study is finished – unless she is willing to schedule on another day (other than Tuesday).

They only seem to communicate with me via text message.

This was suggested by my Psych - who can tell that I'm not easily managing the 6 hours of trips on each Tuesday (now) with 120km of driving, for the Grief Study session & to see the Psychologist.

My MH Support worker's only reply was “Yes that’s fine”, next week’s appointment is cancelled.

That is a highly ambiguous reply, which leaves me confused - & clearly shows my on-going difficulty in having shared discussions (or exchange of information) with the MH workers, regarding our appointments (or service).

That seems to leave me without any further MH worker appointments (or service), until I pursue them to re-book (if possible).

I'm not sure what to do next.

Adge

@Owlunar

You said that the antibiotics you were on made you feel really wonky.

I've been feeling nauseous & dizzy (& wonky uncoordinated), maybe the antibiotics could have something to do with it - I never really thought of that, because in the past they haven't done that to me.

Adge

Hi @Adge

As @Former-Member has suggested take the MH stuff slow and get the Grief stuff out of the way first - I think that's a good idea - to take it slowly

About the antibiotics - there are two reasons at least that antibiotics can make us feel ill

To start with they are working with the body to overcome what infections we have - and this is why we feel ill in the first place - it seems as if our body is ganging up on us but we feel sick because of our body fighting as well as the symptoms themselves

And the antibiotics themselves can make us feel ill - they can upset our tummies and this is no joke

And we can be allergic to some of them - you would know already if you were having an allergic response - you would have a rash and swelling around your face - it sounds as if you have symptoms and your own body fighting plus the anitbiotics upsetting your tummy

This is not pleasant - really tough - but what you need to do is find out what antibiotics you can take and what is a good idea not to - list any with severe effects as allergies even though that is more like a serious reaction - but if that is the case it is better to avoid them

I have like "been there and done that" with a lot of antibiotics - it's a good idea to see the same doctor as much as possible and see the same pharmacist and develop at dialogue with them and talk about the side effects of what you are taking an the chemists are the best to do this with

All the best with that Adge

Dec

hello @Adge @Owlunar @Former-Member

antibiotics are prescribed to fight infection however they play havoc with our bodies.

probiotics, natural yoghurt are good especially fermented.

the infection itself also wearies our system

overall rest yes that dreadful word, drink plenty of water to flush your system

most of all be kind to yourself and gentle.

you are a valuable contributor on here as are others so keeping that in mind take care xx

hello @Adge @Former-Member @Owlunar

I just read the excerpt and had to smile.

I was thinking more along the lines of how the MH worker came across and the homework from the grief counsellor!!!!

how ridiculous

filling in questionaires are always a sign of counsellor not knowing what they are doing...justifying their time

I agree about the horticulture opening up doors if not physical ones perhaps, lecturing, writing articles any suggestions anyone else?

your work position as carer is a very difficult job for anyone who is well let alone in chronic pain and suffering deep grief.

the organisation you work for does not seem to respect their staff. For you to be physically abused is totally inexcusable. patients are supposed to have case workers and clearly the person'scase worker is not doing their job.

I do not understand why you have to provide your own computer if you are required to update your notes that way. again not heard of.

I understand also that you want to work, have an income, have self respect and get through each day. I am so sorry and do not wish to offend you in any way. I just feel so enraged when I hear that lovely people are taken for granted or their kind hearts mistreated.

so if all you can do is rant and rave..... please do so.... i am sure there are many of us who want to do the same.... i am going to start a new thread so keep your eyes out for it