14th year house bound

Hi @hiddenite My Angel,

Oh Karen my thoughts are with you, did you take a blanketto keep warm? i fee ltrapped and isolated too, i agree the world is cruel and unkind, but their are some good people like you, me and everyone else on this forum.

I am sorry you had to experiance that, i get the same, people are scared of me, they take my anxiety for agression, if they only knew how scared i was. don't let it get you you my angel, just remember he does not understand us, he has never suffered like we have.

the anxiety will calm, you have to go on for your beautiful girls, and if you can manage to get some help for you PTSD you may find life does get better.

yes i managed to get the shed clean, i could not sleep last night, several panic attacks, woke up this morning 7 am really drowsey, i hope i come good later in the day, i am so over the panic attacks too, they are so draining, Karen i wish i could be their to hold you and tell you "you are ok, you are safe, i will protect you".

Karen try to stay warm if you need to talk today i will be on my computer on and off all day, if you want to talk vent or just have someone to be their, here i am for you.

Stay Warm My Friend

Jacques

Hi @hiddenite, My Angel,

I can see you are really struggling today, my thougths are with you, i hope you did not go off the medication cold turkey? you need to ween yourself off slowly, yes sometimes comming off the medication can be worse than staying on it.

Karen i am struggling too, but i am fighting through it as should you, remember i am their holding your hand, i will never let go, i will always pick you up when you fall, always be beside you when you need a helping hand or someone to confide in.

Hang in their my angel today is almost over, i suppose you are picking the girls up soon, stay strong, i believe in you.

Karen i am going to give you the number for the PTSD specific treament website

Australian Psychological Society (APS)
Telephone: 1800 333 497 (national number)
Available hours: 8:45am-5:15pm

Website: www.psychology.org.au

Find Psycologist: http://www.psychology.org.au/FaP/

Karen please reach out, i can already see a big change in your depression and mood already. please be careful, reach out to suicide line if you need it or 000 if things get really bad.

Take care, my friend, my angel

Jacques

I am really worried for Karen. I wish Karen and Jacques could be together for real, but I am not sure how far apart you are, I guess you live in different states. All I know is you need to change your situation Karen. Difficult I know when you have young children, I have been through it. You need to make a decision now, and Jacques too be the sound of it. Once you make the decision to change your environment, you will be surprised how much your mental health improves. Panic attacks will wear you down. Please both of you, make a definite plan, set a date for your escape and work towards it. Good luck.

Your brave @hopeandsupport

This is an internet service and i was smiling when i read your message. It feels like to me you are mature beyond years..touching your experience and then writing of their internet friendship.

But not actually writing of their frienship but winding in Karen's dillema to write to her she can i individually change.

Great message ....! 🐏🐦🐩🐔🐺🐓🐤🐩🐦🐕

Hi @hiddenite My Angel,

I am sorry you are struggling, you have had so much on your plate this week i can understand what you are going through.

Karen you do not burden me, i know i have my own problems but i really do not mind listening to you, sometimes just putting the words down can make a real difference. you will not upset me, i am all emotioned out, i am numb to any emotion, so i am here any time to listen, or to give you a pat on the back for the good work you do

The day is so beautiful where i am, i am in the shed putting everything back after spending the week pulling it all apart.

Oh Karen, i know how hard appointments can be, mum speaks for me at all appointments i have because i am unable to, you have done well just going, and for 1.5 hours, it is totally understandable that you had bad anxiety symptoms, i get all those symptoms too, they are very unpleasent.

i am sorry you are in such a tricky prediciment, i understand you need to care for the girls first, but if you are in no mental space to do it, maybe you would be better off getting some care, that way you can care for your family, i know it is a tough dicision and i know the girls come first, i am always here to support you no matter what.

Karen i think it is time you stood up to your mother and tell her that you are not a child anymore and need some respect, if she is not a help she is a hinderence to you and the girls, have you thought about reaching out to a womans refuge for some support and guidance?, you are not a bad person, your mother just has a narrcasitic personallity, my grandmother had it too, whatever my father did was never good enough, in the end he told her to behave or else, and limited contact for a while.

Karen you need somewhere for the girls and you to live, i am sure your mother is having an impact on their self esteem to. please just remember she is the one with the problem, not you, you are an angel to me and to you girls i am sure. this stressful environment is doing you no good, actually it could be makeing your mental state worse.

i know you want everything to stop, i do to, life is difficult and even more so for you and me, but we struggle on, fighting through another day.

My thoughts are with you my friend, hang in their, enjoy the sun and the little things, break the day into hours and focus on the wildlife they don't judge, they are not cruel, they bring us enjoyment.

Big hugs Karen

Jacques