14th year house bound

Yes you are right Karen, please don't feel like bad about me being upset, i am not upset with you, i am upset with your mother, Karen, you can do it, i know it is hard, but you need to make a stand sometime, i am so worried that you will have a mental breakdown from being in such a horrible place.

I can't believe you have made it this long, it is a credit to you, i could not eve nspend on night where i was abused, you are so much stronger than me.

Karen you have to understand that you have been conditioned by your husband never to stand up for yourself or talk back, it will take a long time to rebuild your self worth and self esteem. but you know what Karen, you can do it, i will be with you every step of he wayt, i can already see some improvements in your self esteem when you where working on your new home. it is a shame you have had this setback.

Hang in their my angel, it is almost over.

Jacques

Hi Jacques

My youngest lost her tooth today while at the park. The girls are so excited about the tooth fairy coming tonight they have made her a house. It's all made from boxes and paper. There is a kitchen, table and chairs, tv, lounge, bathroom with toilet. The bedroom is decked out with a double bed and blankets in case the tooth fairy is tired and needs a rest.

The girls have written a letter asking what her name is

Favorite color

Favorite food

And the she leaves proof that she has been.

So tonight I have to wait until they are asleep sneak in answer the questions, make it look like I've been in the house, oh and I better not forget the money.

I've found some glitter and tinsel I'm going to spread around......fairy dust....

Anyway that my night.

Hope you are ok j

Thinking of you

Karen

OMG Karen you are so sweet to those girls, oh yes Miss tooth fairy, that is so sweet, making her a little house, your two girls sound so smart and creative, just like their mum.

That is so nice the girls are asking her questions, and it will be a nice toucvh with the "fairy dust", i am sure the girls are going to be so excited tomorrow morning.

Well my angel, you are sounding a little better. i hope you have managed to get your thoughts together, i was worried about you this afternoon, i am still worried about you.

So what did you and the girls get upto today, besides a missing tooth.

That is so sweet @hiddenite !

I actually remember my letter from the Toothfairy from my first tooth.

I had a funny one with my first tooth... I lost it at school and was devastated because I actually LOST the tooth literally.. I couldn't find it in the dirt. I was so upset.

My family reassured me it was okay and the toothfairy would come.

I woke up in the morning to some money in a glass next to my bed and then some money under my pillow with a letter!! I was so confused. My family told me that there were more than 1 toothfairy (because there's so many kids losing their teeth) and a sign for one tooth fairy to know that the child had been visited was through the tooth registry and because my tooth hadn't been 'logged' 2 toothfairys must have visited.

I was so excited!

What had actually happened though was toothfairy 1 who put money under my pillow was my mum and toothfairy 2 was my aunt, who thought my mum had forgotten, so put money on my bedside table.

In reflection, I'm kinda concerned at how good they were at making up stories

Hi Jacques

This morning we went to the big park. Came back had some lunch and went to the little park followed by a trip to the beach. We made sand castles and dug huge holes and filled them up with water. We went for a walk looking for shells and feathers to decorate the sand castles. They also managed to get wet but the water was too cold for me.

Oh the tooth fairy now has an in ground swimming pool....

A campervan......

And lots more questions to answer

Back in this room again it's like a living he'll.

I know j distract......

I'm trying really I am

Hi Karen, wow what a day, i am sure the girls are really tired tonight, OMG a swimming pool and a campervan, the tooth fairy will never leave!!!!!!! I hope your imagination is working well, looks like you will need it tonight

Oh Karen, you must feel aweful, i am here if you want someone to help you distract

What are you up to tonight j?

Are you having a quiet day tomorrow to make up for your busy week?

What music are you listening to?

Sorry I'm stuck in this room nothing in here except my clothes a bed and bedside table. 4 empty walls. And way too many bad memories.

Hi Karen,

Well not much, i am just working on getting one of my computers working properly, Oh yes i am going to have a quiet day tomorrow,this week has been too much for me, i need some time out.

No music tonight, i am watching some of mum's show, it is some cooking thing.

Karen don't be sorry, i am always here for you, well all the lambs are with their mothers, it is quiet over their at the moment, the cattle are eating the hay, they never seem to sleep, Oh i forgot i am going to mow the lawn tomorrow, it is getting long and i need to get onto it.

how are you finding the new sane web site? what are your plans when you get back home Karen, have you thought about anymore you are going to to your house? the plumber is comming late next week to finish fitting a mixer tap so i will be able to finish the laundry, i have the paint, lino and new door for it.