14th year house bound

I think I'm getting to the point where I'm just too emotionally and physically overwhelmed to use the techniques I need. I don't know j if you feel like that. I just don't want to try anymore.

I'm sorry I don't want to bring you down j.

Being in this room is like being tortured...

What sort of music j....

Yes i understand Karen, i get like that quite regularly, i am always so worn out, i am over trying too, but remember Karen we fight on for eachother and our families.

Karen you are not bringing me down, i am worried about you, i just want you to be at peace, not to have flashbacks, but to think about nice things, you have been tourmented too long by bad memories, it is time for a change.

I know my angel, lets distract.

Music, i am listening to enya and enigma, very calming and relaxing for me.

it is a lttle cool here, the lambs are bbbaaaarrrring, and the calf got a new bail of hay, he is stuffing his cute little face with lots of hay, it is like watching someone with spaggetti, so funny.

Hello Hiddenight,

Im only about twice a fortnight but did i read that your buying or have bought your own home but it needs work?

Can you do some drawings of garden designs you would love or colours you would like to paint your walls as a distraction perhaps?

I hope you find some thing that works for you tonight.

Baboo

I like enya and enigma haunting sounds. Better if you have a quality sound system

J I don't know where to go to get help with complex ptsd, anxiety, depression,ocd....

My psychiatrist is on holidays. And my psychologist has bailed and I have meet a new one next week.

I cannot find help that works....

It is cold here tonight I can smell the fire burning next door. I can hear the waves beating against the rocks. And the call every now and then of a plover. I can smell the sea air.

Thanks baboo I'm listening

Oh yes you need a good sound system, luckily i have 1 , yes haunting sounds, have you heard the two groups before? not many people have heard of enigma.

Karen their are treatment facilities, i will look for some in Vic, and get back to you about them.

Karen you are in a tough situation, but their is help out their Karen, someone will be able to help you, you just have to believe.

Ooooh, i love the smell of a wood fire. and the sound of waves, i miss that from when i lived in QLD, Not a lot of wildlife out at the moment, the birds have gone to bed, their is the odd cat wandering around, the little buggers are setting all the sensor lights off around the house. I can here the frogs in the drain pipes, low croaking, and some crickets.

all i can smell is bleach, i cleaned the bathroom tonight, oh boy how do you get rid of the smell off your hands. it is so strong.

Karen how far are you away from hawthorn where you live?

hi Karen, check out this website when you feel up to it.

http://www.vcps.com.au/post-traumatic-stress-disorder

Hi Karen,

I don't know if you are still online, but i will tell you what i have planed for tomorrow, well, i am going to plant some palm trees, i have to clean the shed, and reorganise some things, then i am going to paint a new door for the laundry, maybe do some platering too ready for the paint, i am thinking of making my own front door, from scratch, it will be a square frame with 4 panels of glass through the middle, probably frosted glass. it will be my first try, i hope it works.

Hi My angel,

Well you made it through another night, i am so proud of you, i worried about you last night when you went offline, i could see you where really struggling, i know you are really struggling.

Karen their is no shame to go home early, the girls have had a nice holliday, your MH is so important.

Well i might be on and offline today, i have the pest inspection, i will try to check up as much as possible.

My thoughts are with you my friend. be safe

Jacques