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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
glad to hear today is much better @utopia xoxo
we are ok , got a lot of unexpected expenses this week
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
yes me too @utopia , but it is paid now my friend and you can relax a little xx
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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soulSenior Contributor
So happy to read that you are on the rise @utopia. Things earlier in the week weren't looking too good but you have powered through - what a trooper!
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Somehow ... we have to hold on those GOOD DAYS
Cheers @utopia
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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SaharaSenior Contributor
I'm so glad you are feeling better, @utopia. And now you have a comfy bed, too.
I was sad to read that you have worthlessness, hopelessness and helplessness in your thinking pattern. But now, at least you are aware of this, right? You can catch yourself when you realise that one (or all) of these these negative concepts is present. You can turn things around.
One thing I have learnt during my journey with MI is that no matter how low I am feeling, that there is always something I can do to improve my mood.... even if it is a very small thing that leads to a very small improvement. It could be a very simple and easy thing, like putting on some relaxing music and lighting a candle, then rugging myself up in blankets so as I feel secure. Ok- I realise this doesn't solve any problems, but if it can make me feel a little bit better, then I am more likely to do the next good thing to help myself.
One good thing tends to pave the way for more good things and by the end of the day, I might have achieved something significant- like making a difficult phone call or answering a difficult email. So then I can prove to myself that I am not helpless, I am actually capable, even though it is hard.
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soulSenior Contributor
Hope that you have had a good day @utopia. Just checking in to see how you are. Any more bed changes? Room changes? Section changes?
Must be very unsettling.
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@utopia wrote:
What a difference a day makes.
Yesterday was such an emotionally filled painful day.
And I talked to the facilitator and I said, " I've just realised, I'm feeling happy. Actually feelingreally good and positive."
Not everything today has been painless. One group we learnt about CBT & the 3 core beliefs - Worthlessness - Hopelessness - Helplessness & I realise I have all 3 of those in my thinking pattern. So yes, that hurt. But next week we will learn how to change that thinking pattern based on those hurtful beliefs. So I can see hope there. I can learn these techniques. Suicidal thoughts or plan I realised, I haven't thought of today and haven't thought about too often this week.
So I think the new dose of Anti Depressants is starting to work.
There is lots to learn and do and practice. Lots of tears and pain still to come. But I have hope.
Today is a good day.
Hi @utopia - can't tell you how over the moon I was to read your above post. Sorry I was a bit late responding, I have been running around like a headless chicken lately. But was thinking about you, so dropped by your thread and saw this wonderful post.
I would be really interested in reading about your progress next week on "how to change the thinking pattern based on those hurtful beliefs of worthlessness, hopelessness and helplessness" - and the strategies used to help turn these hurts and emotions around. I think this could help many of us on here. So it you are up to sharing I would love to read more on this.
Yes, the anti-ds are working! 🤸♀️ - it's great you got to see a good psych in there that raised the dose to the right level for you. It's very hopeful - so so pleased you had a good day. So positive. Please keep us updated on your progress as I have been thinking of you. Sending warm hugs 🤗 🌹🤸♀️xx
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