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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Heloo @utopia, sending you lots of hugs my friend 
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Hi @utopia - that's crap about the workcover stuff. My doctor told me something about that where if they reject your claim then you have to pay back the centrelink payments but in your case they've obviously accepted it as they are paying for the hospital stays so that's a positive. You're in the system now which is half the battle - a lot of people never get their claims accepted especially if they have pre-existing MH conditions. Keep hanging in there - let your lawyer deal with that stuff. Worry about getting yourself well and then deal with all the outside world stuff later - your health is the number one priority. That's great about the bed too - I hate those beds with the rails on the side. Weird that they would even have them in an MH ward. I could understand if they were surgical or acute patients. Just try to focus on the positives no matter how small they are. You've made it this far - you can keep going.
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soulSenior Contributor
Hope you're sleeping soundly @utopia, rejuvenating yourself to face a new day tomorrow.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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soulSenior Contributor
Sweet dreams @utopia
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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BastSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia
Thank you for your wonderful support and understanding and continuing to shine. I get it nothing is OK sometimes. You are off to the mountains, I am in a dingy lost at sea. I have tried to discuss the horrible words from my husband although - he acknowledges that he is fearful again, he did finally apologise. I do get that it is a year since I got to hover on the brink.
Hold onto this to please Utopia - your support is invaluable to me at the moment. The shine is like a life thread and needed in this world. Others such as your mum and services have no comprehension - we are required to experience it to fully understand. I have had only one sensitive client interpret how horribly depressed and afraid I feel, I simply said to her the reality. No one has the right to judge or interpret without personal experience - our sessions are now increasingly beneficial.
I do question AD's however I have been on such a high dose for so long, I am uncertain that it really helps. To be fair though, when I have run low and stretched out and lowered the dosage I certainly feel worse. It is just horrible to introduce and contend with the SE's. My GP, whenever I say no more, says stick with it it is probably running in the background.
Today he did the best he could for me - the IME report is inaccessible to me - he did dislose that I am unable to return to that workplace and unlikely to be able to ever work again. PTSD+++
It is ironic that I have continued to build my private therapy practice throughout all of this - it kept me from upending the boat and drowning. The practice kept me able to contend with all of the discrimination, unfounded accusations and ultimate psycholoical injuries incorporating verbal abuse at my delightful PH workplace throughout 5 months. I surrendered on May 23 - tears that I couldn't stop.
For you Utopia - I know from your wonderful posts that emotional expression has now occurred. Cry when you need to, just allow yourself to be. The hurting with MD is a clear signal to be kind to yourself, just learn to be the new you again.
Regards and many thoughts Bastless
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
sending you lots of hugs my friend @utopia
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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