My Hospital Stay

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A referral was sent to the private clinic and to WorkCover yesterday. WorkCover say they don't have it. Typical.
Have to wait to see if WorkCover approves the stay. Then wait for a psychiatrist to treat me at the private clinic. Then wait for a bed to be available at the clinic.
My suicidal fantasy doesn't scare me anymore. It's calming. I know I have it as a backup plan. But I will try hospital one more time first.
Had a call from the CAT Service - not my district - my ex workplace - but another one. They'll call me again tomorrow. I hope I'm not here tomorrow. I want to be in hospital.
My son turns 15 tomorrow. Going to be very hard to see him. Not that he wants me to. Also my sisters birthday tomorrow (no wonder my son amd her get along so well) - but I don't have to see her.
Got a letter today from first hospital about my complaint letter re: the Old Bugger. They appologised & sent me a rights and responsibilities for patients brochure. Bit too late for that. They haven't talked to the Old Bugger, because he stopped practicing at that hospital before my complaint was received.
I knew it. He wasn't told to leave. He left before any enquiry could be made. Chicken.
Have to see my gp in an hour. Just want to stay in bed and go nowhere - until I can go to hospital.
Waiting for approval. Waiting for a psych. Waiting for a bed. Waiting to get better. So tired of waiting.

@Phoenix_Rising. Suicidal thoughts in the past - they used to scare me.
Not any more. Yes now it's soothing and comforting to have a good plan.

WorkCover say they didn't get the referral last night from my gp. My case manager is away - so my old one is looking after things (me). He said he would call my gp and get the referral refaxed.
The private clinic have my referral. The psychiatrist that treated me last time can't take me on as a patient there - she has too many clients. They have some psychiatrists in mind who might look after me - but they can't contact the psychiatrists - until they get written approval from WorkCover.
And I can't get a bed until a psychiatrist agreesto take me on as a client.
My gp rang WorkCover. WorkCover don't believe this is work related - as I've had depression before. My gp can't confirm with them what I was like before the workplace injury - because she didn't treat me then. The gp I saw no longer works there.
WorkCover want my gp to say how long I needin hhospital. My gp said she doesn't know. That's up to the psychiatrist to say. She didn't receive any paperwork from the hospital regarding my treatment or a plan - after treatment.
WorkCover say I 'should have a psychiatrist. She explained I did - but we had 'a falling out' What the?
WorkCover says it's my responsibility to work with a psychiatrist. Really. I've been trying to get a psychiatrist since I last left hospital. But the last psychiatrist forgot to write the referral.
So I just rang WorkCover. Yes they have the referral. It doesn't have enough detail on it. It only says - 'increasing depression and SI'. They want it to say how long I need treatment and to confirm it's workplace injury related.
So they have now left a message for my psychologist - for him to call them back & confirm or not - whether my current depression and SI is related to my workplace injury. Only if it is related - and proved to be related - will they approve my hospital stay.
It's now 3.30pm. WorkCover closes at 5 & doesn't reopen til Monday. Don't think I will get an answer today. And doesn't look like the answer will be positive, anyway.
I hate this system.

Wow ..... what a maze ..... you're doing so well to grrrrrr about it alll do the waiting @utopia ..... I want to sm*ck something/one for you ..... (wondering if that will get thru 😏)

Sitting here holding your hand ..... with zoned out no. 2 son sitting next to me at the cafe ..... agreed to come with me but just wants to zone ..... I'm all yours for now ..... 💐💕

Mum tried ringing WorkCover. My case manager - etc - are in a meeting. She has demanded they call her today!. She suggested I speak to my lawyers. So I've just spoke to my lawyer. He will speak to my psychologist and then talk to WorkCover.
Don't think any of this will help.

Mum tried ringing WorkCover. My case manager - etc - are in a meeting. She has demanded they call her today!. She suggested I speak to my lawyers. So I've just spoke to my lawyer. He will speak to my psychologist and then talk to WorkCover.
Don't think any of this will help.
WorkCover - their aim is to get you off their books. You either leave - because you can't take it any more. Or you die - because you can't take it any more. They don't care which way you get off their books. So long as you are gone