My Hospital Stay

💕💕💕💕 @utopia

Sorry to hear that you are struggling, @utopia. I hope you can stick to one bourbon only. It's not good to drink when we are upset, but I know sometimes a single drink can take the edge off things and relax me. Let's hope you hear about a hospital admission soon. You deserve to be looked after and to be able to feel safe. Thinking of you. xx

Hi @utopia

So, so sorry my friend to read that you are struggling so. I am glad you reached out also for professional help as hospital right now would be the safest and best place to receive the proper care you need and so deserve. One moment at a time now my friend...

It does not get easy overnight @utopia and the road can be long but with help it does eventually get better, for now you have hit a bump, but you will find and learn better ways to deal with the bad days. Please remember that with abstinence there comes the withdrawal which can make everything seem harder to begin with as turmoil can precede equilibrium. Keep this in mind when you feel distressed saying to yourself "this too will pass" and hold strong.

You need time and more time for your body to adjust without alcohol and more time for your mind to adjust to coping without this crouch. It's a process - Patience my friend - all will work out. Allow yourself the time you need for healing.

Keep leaning on us here, your friends and medical professionals. Between them and us we will hold your hand for as long us you need until you are ready to fly.

For now please try and not touch any more alcohol as that will only serve to deepen your depression and distress - if you feel desperate let the professionals know it is a crisis/emergency situation and you will get looked after much faster. Try for now to take a step back from any triggers and stressors. Most important. And try not to be alone.

I think most individuals when they have hit a very painful hard patch in life think SI as it tricks us into thinking it's an option for peace when in reality all it is is a permanent way out of a temporary problem that can be resolved. I have thought about it in the past myself but like you would never transfer that pain and grief to my loved ones.

Hang in there my friend as help is out there, hold onto hope as we walk this difficult road with you. You are not alone. Warm hugs ❤️🤗🌹xxx

Hi @utopia, I'm sorry to hear you are having such an awful time at the moment. I super hope you are able to get into hospital and get the support you need super soon.

@utopiathat's the depression talking and I am calling it out. Never make decisions when depressed. I am not thinking about anything else but your welfare. When we start on a new anti-d and the dose is low it can make the depression worse. As does mixing it with alcohol. Going into hospital is the best place for you now where the meds can be adjusted and you are looked after. You need more time and care as it's very early days in your treatment. Sending lots of love ❤️ xx

Hi @utopia ...I agree with @Former-Member . Is there someone who can stay with you? Can you call a CATT team where you live? Sounds like you really need a physical presence with you for a proper talk. I still get the SI sometimes but having responsibilities means we need to stick around and let's face it we'll all die eventually of something so why take an early check out when you can stick around to find out how the story ends?...That's the nature of depression - it's cyclical. You need to ride out the bad times to get to the good times and at the moment you're on the downer. You can ride this out and lots of people have your back.