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My Hospital Stay

My Hospital Stay

So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.

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Thank you @Former-Member.
I just need to find some balance in my life. Some routine. Some social companionship. Some interests. Some desire to start living life again.

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Good Morning @utopia 🙂

We sound a bit like twins, but then again I think there may be whole towns of us here on the forums!

Sending you balance, a time schedule, company and hoping that will be interesting and work a bit like a jump start 😄

Niqua

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Wow. Just realised how much drinking is on tv. Watched a movie - heaps of wine. Watched a tv show - heaps of different booze. Am wondering if this is going to be like - when you buy a new car and it's colour is blue and all of a sudden you see blue cars everywhere.
Except seeing blue cars don't make you want to go and drink.
It seems the longer I've been sober - 69 days - the harder it gets. The more the voice in my head tells me ro drink. That a drink will make me feel better. It's like that evil devil on your shoulder. Except sometimes his voice is so loud, he drowns out the angel on the other shoulder.
Wonder how long I can keep this up for. Just want to feel 'normal' again. And my normal is a numb buzz from drinking.
Think I'll take a prn tonight - to help settle me down.

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Aw - that sounds so hard @utopia

I think about TV and what it says about drinking and smoking etc - and I never thought about what it's like for a person who has problems with those things

But when I smoked - yes - I found that if I saw someone smoke in a movie I would light up - and also - the ads telling us how bad smoking is did the same

The world is a trap for people just trying to be "normal" again - when their normal is a long way behind

All the best Utopia

Dec

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Thank you @Owlunar. Yes you do understand.
I'm just trying to keep busy/distracted through this current urge, right now. Then I'll be fine. That's what I'm hoping anyway.

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Thanks @utopia

Keep distracted - say in the forum for as long as is sensible and focus on your prn for today

Dec

I could not help myself - I had to find a "distracted pic" -

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Lol @Owlunar

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@utopia .... 💚💕

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@Faith-and-Hope. I could quite happily live in that picture.

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Thought so ..... ❣️

Had your name on it ..... 😏

@utopia

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