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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
Wow @utopia
66 days and still going - that is fantastic - you deserve a medal - I wonder if I can find one
Yes - I have called this Utopia's Medal and it will get bigger as time goes on - that is hard yards and I am proud of you - not having any idea of how hard this has been for you - but knowing there has been a lot of pain with all of that
And you are right - it is a double whammy coming off the alcohol and managing your MI issues - it's hardly fair but you are right - there are a lot of people with pain of all sorts and conditions - and then add to your double whammy - Centrelink and Work Cover
You may not see it yourself but from my lounge room you look pretty worn-out and somehow glorious - I am proud to know you - 66 days
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SaharaSenior Contributor
@utopia, 66 day free of alcohol is an amazing effort., it shows how strong you really are. You are amazing. 
The most I have ever gone without alcohol is around 30 days; that is snce I was 18 years old. Thirty days in amost thirty years! Not great.
I don't know if I will ever give it up.
It's interesting how MI issues and substance use/abuse go hand in hand, isn't it? I am absolutely sure that my drinking is related to anxiety and always has been.
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
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Good night @utopia I understand your struggle. Sleep well and peace be with you 🙂
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