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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
@utopiaThinking of you my beautiful cocky friend 
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ArtemisContributor
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Hello @Artemis and welcome to the forum 
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Hugs @utopia , sounds cold down your way , it is sooo wet up here , raining non stop
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
Wow @utopia - you are becoming really arty farty aren't you lol - 2 galleries in one day 
Even though it was so cold I bet you still enjoyed the experience 'up through the mountain'.
Tomorrow is a baby step with your son. I know it is breaking your heart but he needs time to heal as well my beautiful friend - so little by little he will start to 'come back' to you. I know you want only the best for him and if that is still staying with your mum for now then that is good for both of you to 'find your feet' again. There is most likely a sense of 'stability' for him at the moment staying with your mum - and it isn't that he doesn't love you he is probably more concerned about any added 'pressure' there would be placed on you if he was to come home right now. Give it time my friend - and keep reminding yourself that you have been a single parent for a long time, carried all the responsibility, nurturing and care of your son on your shoulders alone - and YOU have given him the strength to say what he wants and needs right now - that is a pretty amazing job you have done. So don't 'hurt' because he is not yet ready to come home - celebrate that you have raised an independent young man that is not afraid to say what he needs
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Beautiful @Zoe7 .... 💜🌷
Hugs @utopia ....
Hi @Artemis welcome to the forums .... 😊👋
All the best @Former-Member .... will be thinking of you ....💐💕
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Take the time you need to put the pieces back into place @utopia ...... it's natural for me to drift things from chaos to order ...., just gently like a butterfly across my landscape .....
I shared a room with my sister growing up, and she kept it permanently trashed .... looked like we had been burgled .... my kids do that to their rooms as well, then do a massive clean-up .... then it slides into trashed again. WH was the same. Now with this ocpd triggered, he is feeling driven to bring things to order, but his behaviour is too frantic to keep them that way, and his envorinment returns to semi-trashed in between,
He has started, in different rooms of the house, to state that nobody is using this or that, so get it out to the garage ..... part of the pattern that has caused my organisation to crumble, but in the wake of the ocpd diagnosis I can tell him to stop trying to control everybody else's stuff ..... that I am using the This or that that he is so ready to junk into the messed up storage in the garage where I can't find it when I need it, (so it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy that nobody is using it !!) and give me a chance to put it away properly ...
His answer - why hasn't it been put away already ?
My answer - there are more people in this house not putting things away than the one person who is .... you do the maths on that .... and give me a chance to put the damn things away befor your trigger-happy heave-ho takes over again ..... !!
So far that's working. Anything he does truck out to the garage I am determined to truck straight back in, along with the message that we don't tidy one space by trashing another ..... it finds a use, and a place, or it goes to a new home .....
Only a bazillion more things to find a home for ..... lol .... our house has been a shifting landscape with a couple of the kids getting married in recent years, and WH's "new world order" happening to us .... but I have finally stepped up beyond the basics again, and after two weeks of drifting things back into place, "my" house is starting to find itself again.
Tip: I stick a basket under chronic mess areas. Even a crappy-looking old plastic basket looks better than a big pile of unsorted crap .... and a basket can be carried to a table, some of the crap sorted out of it, even just one item at at time, and the basket returned to where it was.
Queen of baby steps over here .... 😆👋
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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