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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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Zoe7Senior Contributor
lol @utopia - I really do want yor meds 
I am envisaging a t-shirt with an image printed on it of a blurry darth vader superimposed over a firemans head - with your slogan underneath.
You are definitely better at the slogans on meds lol lol lol - keep them coming - new t-shirt line on it's way 
ps I'm surprised you didnt lock the fireman/darth vadar in your room with you lol
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
Hi @Bast
My cat is getting on in years - she will be 14 in October - and she has regular trips to the vet because she had a long spell of losing weight and she is a little cat - and the second last weigh in I was told she might have cancer and would have to have scans - and this was after blood and urine tests - but the last time she had put on weight and she has her claws clipped and all is well with her - she has slowed down a lot from when she was younger but dreams - yes - with the running paws and all that - but she sleeps right beside me - on top of me sometimes - and she gets settled down
She always wants to have her paws on top of my hand - last night I decided to get up and watch TV for a while - which was great because I went back to sleep - and I told her - "I am getting up - those little paws cannot hold me down" - so - oh yes - of course - she came out and sat on top of me with the TV going
So you have 6 furbabies - what kind? - I only have one - and how many children do you have? - I have one of those too - married with her own family - so furkids have a big place in our lives
All the best Bast
Dec
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia
It does sound as if you are in the middle of a sci-fi movie - it gets better with firemen in during the night - false alarm - oh dear - that sounds like something really strange
I guess you are settling into your medication - the changes etc - and this will not be an easy ride I am sure
About your son - have you explained to him that these hospital visits etc - and your drinking - are not his fault - and you are getting help for all of this because you are ill because of trauma in your life you had no control over?
My Dad criticised me for explaining everything to my kids - he said I took them to seriously - but I thought not - we were not told anything when we were kids - life just happened and this is not healthy - so I think you most likely have explained as best you can to your son -
So if he is angry with you - that is his thing - something he has to work out - when your health has improved it might make sense to him - as long as he really understands that none of this is his fault - or yours - you have an illness
Thinking of you - and the medication stories and the fireman stories and your nun's cell - it can't be all bad there
I am so glad you are getting this help at last
Dec
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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BastSenior Contributor
Hi @Owlunar
I am so rapt to receive your reply. Your beautiful cat is clearly doing ok at the age of 14. One on my previous rescues rocked on until 21, her name was Rime (white frost) and I am fortunate that I was with her to help her pass onto the care of the great egyptian cat goddess. I hope your beautiful furrbaby, who has clearly the best mutual love does well.
I am glad that you have a daughter, I hope she also loves you dearly.
I do not - however I have furrbabies instead. Pretty well all rescued. They are all indoor cats and are therefore safe. It is interesting though because they have no idea they are actually cats. Seems to be fine by them though.
I have 2 very mature brothers named Articulate (black with a white chest and dark green eyes) and P...sy (ginger and white, AKA special),
When P....sy (pathetic name, however I wasn't sure he would be able to stay) looks at you, you can't help knowing that he is seeing much more.
I have baby girl (she was rescued at 4 weeks from a major road) Stongly bonded, vocal and a tabby. She likes to sleep on my head........etc. and follow me. I have Oracle - rescued, long haired and pure white, 6kg and deaf. Meant to be adopted here. I have Hecate, I think she is an oriental, rescued from a restaurant carparK, whilst screaming because of the ministrations of a male. She was skeletal when I found here and is still fearful at times. She accepts support when able.I have Bast, a bengal that was probably tortured by a 2 year old child and adopted as family friendly. My husband did this for me as I was grieving so badly from the loss of another special rescue. Feline aides is a horrific disease.
Dec - tell me more about your cat, I would love to know. I am allowing myself to experience the sadness and memories of the many beautiful cats that have been in my life,
Thank you so much for your reply
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BlueBaySenior Contributor
Hi @utopia I have been thinking about you.
How are you? I really hope you are okay?
Love and hugs
BB xxxooo
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Just quietly cracking up reading these posts @utopia. Keep up the good work 💜🤗💐😘
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Unknown userMember
Sound a bit interesting @utopia as to what she meant by 'they are colleagues' but cool she gave you a heads up. Hoping you'll start to sort out stuff this week now you are feeling more settled and can put last week behind you once you've written it up.
Take good care of you. 💜🤗💐
PS I check in every day to see how your doing, just some days I'm not good and don't respond. I've managed two ok days in a row without thought of Sh or Si so I'm on a roll. 😊
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