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utopiaSenior Contributor
So I arrived here at midday today.
Feeling a bit lost. Everything is so ... strange.
Not sure what to do now.
Starting to get a bit anxious. A bit teary. Trying hard not to think, or to feel.
Wishing I had a bourbon or some chips or junk food. Something to keep me busy and not feeling.
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oceangirlSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia 
thinking of you hon. hope you get excellent care with your new specialist.
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Unknown userMember
Hey @utopia,
just dropping in to say hi and I hope you're getting that rest you deserve. Woohoo 🙌 on getting a single room. That is pretty much the most important part I think. The first time I ended up in the psych ward it was in what looked like a dog box. It was pretty archaic. They've now built a new purpose built building with rooms more like motel rooms.
Im hoping your getting your brain ready for lots of aha moments and building on the good stuff. It's so great you've been given a second chance with someone who seems to have you at the centre of everything.
Sending you some native flowers to add to your scenery.
I love grevilleas and how they attract birds. Hoping to have a garden full one day.
Take good care of you 💜🤗💐
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BastSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia @Former-Member @oceangirl @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar
Hi Utopia
Thank you again for sharing what is happening to you - I am glad that you have been able to negotiate for a half dose of the AP I suspect it is the big O. It is just so awful to think that your mind is going away during treatment. My mind was fluctuatung prior to treatment and it was like being completely zapped once treatment started.
I hung on and eventually the constant sooking stopped.
And then the anxiety party restarted and became agitation.
From there the treatment mix was upped, added to and titrated down. I had a sever mallergic reaction to 2 althernatives. That was not fun.
And then.....Off to the ward in a PH - no meds no nothing for 10 days. Finally escaped and really did the deed. Back again on a ward and speaciled and awaiting surgery and an acute bed, I was fortunate the agency nurses were wonderful.
From there finally the reitroduction of meds,the withdrawal had been horrific. L was added and it rocked my little world. And I was finally allowed out.I was further monitored for 5 days - I just kept telling them I was fine and dandy.
They eventually went away.
Went to Gp had the dose of L upped to therapeutic levels, struggled to walk or think. Finally told GP I was struggling to function. GP reviewed the meds and reported incompatibly to the point of dangerous.
L ceased - and the sadness party continues
Regards Bast
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BastSenior Contributor
Hi @utopia @Former-Member @oceangirl @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar
Hi Utopia
Thank you again for sharing what is happening to you - I am glad that you have been able to negotiate for a half dose of the AP I suspect it is the big O. It is just so awful to think that your mind is going away during treatment. My mind was fluctuatung prior to treatment and it was like being completely zapped once treatment started.
I hung on and eventually the constant sooking stopped.
And then the anxiety party restarted and became agitation.
From there the treatment mix was upped, added to and titrated down. I had a sever allergic reaction to 2 althernatives. That was not fun.
And then.....Off to the ward in a PH - no meds no nothing for 10 days. Finally escaped and really did the deed. Back again on a ward and speaciled and awaiting surgery and an acute bed, I was fortunate the agency nurses were wonderful.
From there finally the reitroduction of meds,the withdrawal had been horrific. L was added and it rocked my little world. And I was finally allowed out.I was further monitored for 5 days - I just kept telling them I was fine and dandy.
They eventually went away.
Went to Gp had the dose of L upped to therapeutic levels, struggled to walk or think. Finally told GP I was struggling to function. GP reviewed the meds and reported incompatibly to the point of dangerous.
L ceased - and the sadness party continues
Regards Bast
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @utopia im glad your doing abit better
im not really in the right headspace for anything at the moment and have alot of dramas going on
i wish you the best though and good luck continuing your journey
big hugs to you
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BastSenior Contributor
@Owlunar
Hi dec,
Just wanted to thank you for the cat snoring, dream comments. All 6 of my furrbabies have little snoring habits and dreams at times. I always keep a motherly eye on them.
Sometimes they are moving their legs, like running in their sleep, they are easily soothed with pats and cuddles when this happens.
I hope your cat will respond to the same - alleviate distress, for whatever reason, whenever you can. Maybe salt water for the cat's mouth will help, if not not off to the vet the cat will have to go.
I adore my children - and will always do what is necessary to keep them well, after all we have mutual love.
Regards Bast
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
ohhhh @utopia, what a night and a morning my friend 
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