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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @Former-Member @Determined @Anony18 @soul @Faith-and-Hope
i was lil-caterpillar
im back... i think...
im treading very very lightliy at the moment
@Anony18 i also seen those pics you posted from your hike. they were beautiful and also the artworks too thank you for thinking of me
F&H - i also read on my depression thread as well. thank you for careing even though i left
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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soulSenior Contributor
Good on you @outlander. Something to cross off the list. Onwards and upwards. Hope you're feeling better today.
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Anony18Senior Contributor
Great news @outlander
It is ok my friend. The outcome was one of the 2 chances and I think it is for the best. I am trying to hold all these emotions in, more sadness than anything. At least I still am part of my now friend's life. He is a great person and caring irregardless how unfair he was to me the past couple months. He needs to be selfish for his own self care unfortunately and I need to be selfless for his mental wellbeing.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
i got all the exams done today while i was there so i dont have to worry about it for another 2 years now.
@Anony18@soul@Shaz51@Former-Member
it hurt and im still hirting abit- pretty sure the speculum was too big maybe i shouldve said something about that but all well its all done now and the nurse was as gentle as she could be and explained everything as i was going. it took me 10 minutes to eb able to move off the table. i felt completely frozen and the room was spinning so i jsut stayed there and answered her questions then got dressed and went back over to her.
i really need the break today but i have been flat out and stressed all day and traumatised abit but i think ill be ok. i see my gp tomorrow for my breast lump and ill ge that checked, im im still in abit of pain tomorrow ill ask her about that too and now im pretty much 2 months without my period so ill have to speak to her about that as well as i was spotting today but is stopped and there is not signs of it sticking around... so yet another thing to worry about.
my nurse said that im alot maturer than most people she sees and quite alot of them are older than me, im wiser beyond my years and im a very capable, caring decent young women. i seen her in my earlier years for a health issue and she said wow ive changed so much though i dont think you had much of a choice or a childhood- thats what my nurse said anyway.
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soulSenior Contributor
Very happy for you @outlander
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outlanderSenior Contributor
i honestly didnt realise how much ive done today until i wrote a list and that was
1. get kids ready for school
2. take them to school
3. take mums boyfriend to work
4. go to gp
5. do one of my other jobs which is horse holiday care so i had to feed brush rug clean water troughs and then go from there
6. pick my sister up form school as she felt sick and she puked but now she feels better since doing thatas it was somethin we ate last night and mums sick too
7. feed our animals- bird, dog, rabbit and do our horses
8. pick up my other sister from school
THEN i have half hour then
9. go pick up mum boyfriend form work
10. get dinner read
11. get kids ready for school tomorrow
12. give the house a tidy up
13. i need to get some sort of study in and then go to bed an start the day again
geezus- how i manage that on 2 hours sleep i dont know and thank god my pop is ok and has gone out for the day with his friend to look at a car show thing so ive had the day off from him but not much anywhere else
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soulSenior Contributor
Superwoman @outlander
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outlanderSenior Contributor
@Anony18 i feel for you i really do. i know its hard but maybe it is for the best, he can focus on himself and you can focus and getting yourself better wothout worrying whether your being selfish. i know that selfsih feeling all to well, i get it everytime i ask for help on here, i feel super selfish and gulity asking for help knowing there are others who are struggling more than me and need the support more than i do.
you too are a very caring friend, you couldve made it an extremely big deal and then made it uncomfortabel for both of you or he could of done it as well so ending on a good note and coming to mutual agreements is good conflict resolution. i know it hurts
you dont have to hold your feeings in on here, let them out, even if its jsut a rant, use this thread if you want to i really dont mind. you holding it in is just bottling up all those emotions and i really dont want to you to pop so please feel free to just speak your mind ok
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outlanderSenior Contributor
im far from superwoman @soul lol i know many people on here are doing alot more than what i am doing so what im doing is nothing compared to that
but thanks for the compliment 
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outlanderSenior Contributor
i feel kind of awkward there in the gp practice now though- knowing shes been sticking her fingers in places- not the most pleasant encounter
does anyone else feel like that?
does the feeling subside?
@Anony18@soul@Former-Member@Shaz51
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