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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @Former-Member @Determined @Anony18 @soul @Faith-and-Hope
i was lil-caterpillar
im back... i think...
im treading very very lightliy at the moment
@Anony18 i also seen those pics you posted from your hike. they were beautiful and also the artworks too thank you for thinking of me
F&H - i also read on my depression thread as well. thank you for careing even though i left
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my nurse is quite fantastic!
ive dealt with her before for another issue I was having and she was very kind and emapathtic about that as well and as I was telling her all the things that have been going on her jaw dropped and I think it hit the floor and she says good greif child!!
I think thats an idiciation im going through a lot atm lol
shes very understanding. I wrote her a list of questions and actually just handed it to her and she said thats absolutley fine, id rather hear the questions than not at all.
She explained what she does etc and if at any time I ask her to stop we can take a breather.
She seems to be helping me quite a lot. She said if I tense up its ok we are going to take things sowly which I why I booked the double appointment.
I dont know if ill be able to study tomorrow as I know its already going to be traumatic. So ill be tryng to do more self care things I think just to settle the mind but id be surprised if I come out and im ok. Im trying to be brave and let her do all the examniantions includng breast and the full pelvic exam as well. Im trying to at least. I really want to get it done all in one go instead of putting myself through that trauma over and over again.
Im going to try to have an early night, shower and watch a movie. Then in the morning I might have a nother shower or go for a walk then have a shower so I can relax abit more or maybe try the deep breathing
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Anony18Senior Contributor
Am so glad for you @outlander. Self care is so important and definitely look after your mental health. Best you concern yourself on that first than worry about studies. If you not in right mind frame, studying will be hard....at least for me it is, particularly work. I have no clue why today I am in massive struggle town. Like my partner after i texted him yest, using the "i feel..." tactic said he will try think of an alternate timed plan, but it has gotten me more anxious and upset than anything. Maybe it is cause I still am in limbo with no set date and time and it feels like I may still remain stuck for ages....
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soulSenior Contributor
Could only give you one thumbs up @outlander but I think you deserve more.
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Anony18Senior Contributor
Yay @outlander. Hope you get some good rest. I tried calling twice which then he msg I will have to see you later if I can. It is still so vague and it is upsetting me cause I can't sleep given I need see him no I told him even if late and I go his way.
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