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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @Former-Member @Determined @Anony18 @soul @Faith-and-Hope
i was lil-caterpillar
im back... i think...
im treading very very lightliy at the moment
@Anony18 i also seen those pics you posted from your hike. they were beautiful and also the artworks too thank you for thinking of me
F&H - i also read on my depression thread as well. thank you for careing even though i left
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Anony18Senior Contributor
@outlander - that isn't good. Make sure you rest and do not overexert yourself. When you are sick - rest is what is the most important. Me personally am not doing great at all. Forced myself to sleep early and that I did but I woke up in between.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Anony18Senior Contributor
@outlander - you still at the gp or are you finished? Did you manage to ask your questions and are you feeling slightly better about things or still the same? I hope it went well xx
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outlanderSenior Contributor
ok so the nurse has answered all my concerns and shes really reassuring and I feel comfortable with her. She said just coming in and asking about all those questions is a big step.
She proud that after I last appointment I went home and had a think about what we had a talk about.
Shes happy that I didnt go onto the internet to find out information and that im honest in the way im feeling and how nervous I am. She explains what she does with SA victims and everythign as well as she understands how traumatising it must be for us to get it done. She offered to do the exam today but I declined and said I would like it done asap while im 'ok' with it so im booked in for tomorrow at 10am. She said im not comfortable I could dont the STD testing through urine sample but I think its easier to get it all done in one hit so its all done and the less I have to worry about. She said do those first then see how I go with the rest of the pelvic exam if its not ok shes happy to stop and organise it for when im ready to. She pretty much giving me the reins and letting me have control over everything and shes reassured me shes very experienced and I do trust her shes been at the clinic for years now.
I told her ive nearly skipped my cycle for 2 months now and she was going to get my gp in but I said no not today. And she said thats fine. I was giving her some of my other symptoms as well and she said well we can test for any infections etc as well and since ive been on antibiotics its quite possible its caused an imbalance somewhere and with all the medications changes as well..
im hoping it doesnt come tomorrow ive only got a few hourse until I go back so im actually fingers crossed my period doesnt come to I can get all the test done.
She also like the fact that im doing it for my health not because of past reasons. Im trying to just keep thinking its for my health nothing more.
Yes the big day is tomorrow I am freaking out quite a lot but since my questions have been answered im slightly ok but I havent got there yet but shes said booking the double appointment is a good idea in case I need abit of extra time for slowness and recovery as well if I need it and to just sit there for a few minutes before I walk back out
yeah I just played on my phone, it didnt help that one of the males kept talking to himself but theres other females around as well which was a little more comforting.
I was talking to my nurse about the infection and she also said I will be sore for a few days and it will take a few days to get the infection under control, but keep an eye on temperature but dont be afraid to go back to gp or anything including hospital.
I didnt see my gp as I couldnt handle 2 stressfull appointments in one day. So I see my gp on wednesday unless I get my gp to come in and check and have a chat around my period as well at the same time tomorrow but after the smear and exam
I want to get tested STD so it doesnt fester into something worse and linger around when I can treat it now, im going to try and be brave and get the full works done inlcuding the breast exam as well so I dont know how im going to eb afterwards but I think its better to get it done in one go rather than in sections. Then I can just deal with the stress and then wont have to worry about it for another 2 years unless otherwise. Im getting results sent to her and ive booked that appointment for the results as well as I dont want anyone finding it and I feel better if shes with me and explains it
I feel like I really need to hurl again- YUK YUK YUK
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outlanderSenior Contributor
oh sorry above msg @Anony18@soul@Former-Member@clairesy
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Anony18Senior Contributor
@outlander - that is good that you were comfortable with the nurse and at least you are feeling slightly better. It must have been hard but you were brave to ask the questions and go to the appointment. She is right for you to take it slow and at your own pace. Definitely keep us updated on how you are going in terms of your appointment. We are here to listen as always 
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soulSenior Contributor
Hi @outlander, you've done really well today. Once all this medical stuff is over, you will be very relieved. You've gotten through the appointment today and the nurse that you have been communicating with seems to be very patient and understanding. You'll be fine. We will all be thinking of you.
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