im back..... i think

I'll post what I have so far and can always edit it later. See you over there in a moment hopefully! @outlander and @Pepsimax 🙂

Coolio @CheerBear

@NikNik what if the ultrasounds bad 😯

Hi @outlander
I'm about to head off to bed. It's completely normal to feel anxious about medical results. When we have those anxious thoughts though, we need to remember that there's also a good chance it will be a good outcome too.
It's about staying neutral, which is such a balancing act. I find that tough - so I distract 🙂

If the Forums are good distraction for you, them keep on using them tonight. But it might be more productive tonight to interact with things like Cheerbear is organising.
Not sure what you think about that..

If things do get too much, and you need support, especially as people are heading to bed, please contact one of the crisis services. Hearing someone else's voice at the other end of the line might be really helpful too.
Night and take care!

Ok @NikNik ill try my best

Goodnight sleep well ❤❤❤

@outlander morning hope you had a good sleep I did but woke up feeling a bit emotional just teary seeing my support worker today this will be good she is going to help me with my room let the tears out feel a bit better

I think I did the wrong thing and maybe made my situation worse! @Spookytookims @CheerBear @Pepsimax @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope

Here if you want to talk about it @outlander ....

You know those two girls that were being cows to me and how they turned on me and thr fb incident and then one of them trying to get information
The girl that turned on me first that was best friends for years her mum is ine of my mums long time friends and also one of her work bosesses
After my massage i decided to go to see my horses as they adent usually there at this time and low and behold they are both riding their own horses when i rock up they start laughing really loudly over pretty much nothing and then they kept looking over at me while i was there before i even got my horse in. And then they get off and my ex friend who i offerred to ride her horse for her etc etc gets her other friend on her horse the new one shes calling her bestie and starts riding and laughing really loud and kept looking over at me at this point i was gettinf my horse in thankfully it was an easy get in as it usually take me ages as there's heaps of other horses in the group and they always try to run through the gate and i was feeding and brushing her as they came walking over and snarking at me so i turned around at told them to grow the f#$k up and then it turned into an argument thay almost turned into bit more than yelling but lucky for them i managed my anger
I put my horse out slammed the door of my car and i heard them say oooooh as i was driving off it took great will power to not stop the car and go back

Im hoping it doesnt affect my mums friendship or her work either
@Faith-and-Hope

Hopefully it felt good to have a voice and get your feelings out there @outlander .... but you know what ? People like that make a sport out of pushing your buttons until they get a reaction out of you.

Well, they got one today ..... and if it helps you that you got to express that frustration, that is something good that has come of it, but I would encourage you to see this a different way ......

The more reactive you are, the more you feed their little game, and give them fuel to say that you are really badly behaved while acting like they are completely innocent.

The best way to handle bullies is to disempower them ...,. take away their fuel, their capacity to have any effect on you ...., and avoiding them is the best first step if you can. If you turn up and they are there, turn around and come back another time .... or jump on your horse and ride away, doing the rub-down work after they have left.

Remove their toy .... that being you ..... and the novelty will wear off for them.