im back..... i think

@Appleblossom ive been ignoring them but its making it very hard for me to be there, its already hard enough going to see my horses as it is without them being there.
When I was there today, I had my horse in the driveway and didnt see the car coming, that she was driving as I had my back turned and was talking to my sisters riding instructor. And she just kept coming and pretty much swearing under her breath when I qucikly realsied I was in the way and moved. Then she got out of the car and slammed the door. And salked past me.
The other chick thats friends with ym ex friend- the one who randomly started contacting me walked past me while I was by myself and didnt see boo to me either on the way through or on the way out of the gate. And then those 2 got together and was exagerating laughing and talking loudly as I was by myself just watching my sisters lesson. And then they walked past me again and like snickered at me. And my mum is friends with my ex friends mum so I yelled out see you guys later and the only response I got was from the mother while the 2 cows just rolled their eyes at me.
So yay what great friends I have.

@CheerBear- my days been horrible and its not improving one bit. I want to run away from everythign and never come back.

today ive also realised just how alone i am off the forums. i have no friends and the ones i thought i had are no longer friends with me and wont be again since all of their shite theyve been doing. my mother and family couldnt give a hoot, not even my own horse seems to like me anymore.

7 weeks @outlander

Is that just inconveniently late or could that be a big problem - something to mention to your doctor tomorrow - or Thursday when you are due to go there

Hang on - tomorrow you are speaking to the technican at the place where they do that kind of thing - it would be good to talk to her about it and have a test if necessary - no need to worry too much until you are sure and then - you have choices

Ah - that is something we either want to see or would rather we didn't - depending - um - maybe all the stress you have had is holding it up - I think that happens

Dec

@Owlunar you can be whoever you want to be, im not declining though but its up to you, im not forcing nor do i expect it

i dont totally ignore them, i jsut dont argue anymore, i try my best at caring for them and i guess they are having a good upbringing with both me and mum putting our hearts out there for them. pity i didnt get the same in return but i dont expect it anymore i just get about my bussiness.

im really sore and throbbing at the moment so im hoping that subsides abit soon, doubt it but hoping too.

can you read the above msg i just wrote to appleblossom and see what you think about those idiot friends i have?

alot of the times i wish i was someone else and not me, to ahve friends in the real world and a supportive family

its been late before but only by a week so now its 3 weeks late so if i dont get it within the next 2 weeks then ive skipped 2 months!!! @Owlunar im thinking its stress as its hasnt happened before, ts irregular but not to this extent which is why it has me abit worried

yes i see the womens health nurse and shes the one to talk to about all this i think so ill ask her about it tomorrow as well as all my questions. she might tell me to wait until the infection has gone within my body before getting the pelvic exam though as things might change since im on antiobiotics so not sure about that one yet but ill work it out when i get to it tomorrow

hello @outlander

did you say you are on antiobiotics ? have you taken some paracetamol today

yeah im on very strong antibiotics and yes i took paracetamol this morning @Shaz51