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outlanderSenior Contributor
hi @Mazarita @Owlunar @Former-Member @Adge @Spookytookims @CheerBear @Former-Member @Shaz51
i was lil-caterpillar
im back..... i think.....
im just treading very very lightly at the moment
but id like to let you know that i have read what you wrote on my other threads and i appreciate your kind words and for thinking of me even after i left here 
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@outlander I often think to myself 'just do it and then it's done', it has helped get things done that otherwise would not have. If this exam is something that your dreading, it might be better to get it over and done with. If the results are good, then the stress of worry will probably dissipate; if they aren't entirely good, then something can start being done about it.
My heads a little frazzled, I'm actually trying to avoid the Forum a little (obviously not so well right now) I wonder whether being happy triggers me somehow? But I have been dealing with this for half a century and will continue to do so, hoping that it can show you and others that it can be done. There is joy, even if it does trigger, it is worth it!
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OwlunarSenior Contributor
Hi @outlander
I am usually busy all day on Fridays - but I am in today -
I think taking yourself to the place where you are having the exam and chatting to the person there is a good idea -
One thing that makes me stop and think is when I ask myself - am I having this or that done because I think I need it or someone else has made that decision? - Unless these is some obvious reason that it needs to be done tomorrow - yes - as someone else said - think about it a bit and talk with the person who would be doing the test
All the best though - and is the topical cream helping the breast problem?
Dec
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outlanderSenior Contributor
thank yuo beautiful @Former-Member i like being on these forums- you know why? not just to support others but it really does feel like family here- sometimes i wish i had a good parent as many of people are wonderful parents on here and often seem to have the best advice
ok well i dont know how to distract myself from this as it it obviously a massive trigger and an unknown one for that. i didnt know it was going to affect me that much.
on monday im going to brave the nurse and at least ask the questions and discuss my concerns surrounding this and then i think ill jsut organise the exam when she says when the best time in the cycle is to get it done but atm ive skipped an entire month! @Former-Member@Former-Member
and @Former-Member you should do the things that make you happy. is there anything bothering you about being on the forums that maybe we could help you along with?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
oh my @Owlunar im glad to see you here!
thats going to be on monday and maybe ill have a few people holding my hand while im there. i really hope so
my nurse said its not particularly urgent that i get it done right this second but she is worried about the damage that has been done as it was very rough esp being young. so she would like to start checking things out and would like to run some tests and get STD testing done and feel for any abnormalites and she would like it done soon but not as soon as monday so i think ill be ok to just have that talk with her and get some of my questions answered
i would also like to be checked in a way incase there is something wrong and i can treat/mamange before things get worse or to a stage beyond repair
the cream i dont think is doning much as yet, when anythign touches it it feels like im being pinched and what lump is was its now not a lump its like fluid has been sucked in and creating a dip but its still spreading out like its leaking
how have you been?
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outlanderSenior Contributor
thank you heaps @Former-Member i imagine how scary it would ahve been for you too. im glad to have you with me too- it helps to know others have gotten through this. it really does Beautiful Bella. i really appreciate all your advice and support and guidance as well since youve been in this predicament. please remember everytime you think your not helping anyone think of all the help youve been giving me and its becasue of you i decided to get SA counselling i ahvent let her know that i wanted the pap smear so nothing will be preped but if i get get it done asap after that ill jsut have to book a double appointment
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