Safety

@Zoe7 I dont know if i can feel safer. even the sound of the paper would be too much i am even typing quietly. plus i dont want to be too distracted incase i need to run away. i am sorry i am so difficult. it would be easier for everyone if i was gone. i feel hopeless.

oh @CherryBomb now it has become a competition then - game on!!!! lol

@Eden1919 you are not being difficult - you are just scared - that's why we are here keeping you company and it wouldn't be easier for me if you were gone - who is going to help 'lift me up' in the middle of the night when I feel so hopeless again (and we both know it is going to happen!!!!)

Strength, courage, belief - I'll hold onto these for you for now - and you can remind me again of them later just like you did for me last night

No, it wouldn't be easier if you were gone @Eden1919. Please stick around with us.

Let's get you to tomorrow.

So music helps. Can get yourself into bed with some headphones, listen to music low volume so it's enough to drown out sounds, but also to hear things around you.

@Zoe7 thanks I am a mess right now btw if i disappear at all it is probably because i am quietly pacing around because i am really unsettled atm.

@CherryBomb I am going to try and make some food because i havent eaten for a while but we will see how i go.

Do whatever you need to do to help you out tonight. Please check in occasionally to let us know how you are going - even if you are not doing well @Eden1919 I'll keep checking in most of the night to see how you are - and to listen or just sit with you if you need.

I second what @Zoe7 said, do what you need to do to get through the night, and please do check in with us.

We're here for you.

well i have been pacing a lot trying to just sit with dog but still very unsettled.

Hi @Eden1919,

Would going walk be useful? Perhaps you can take the dog with you.

too scared for that right now @CherryBomb