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Thanks everyone I saw my GP which has eased some of my worries a little he wants to do a blood test to see about some of the side effects i am still having despite having stopped my meds. and a few other things. he wants me to find a new psychiatrist as he doesnt think my current one is very good. i am still very anxious and jittery right now and feel very on edge my gp wants to see me again soon to monitor me while i am off meds. i am still very paranoid about every little thing which i know is my OCD but it is really intense and distressing right now.

Yeah i am trying to listen to music and i am going to try to do some art hopefully.

I feel really weird. I am super agitated and i cant stop thinking about doing bad things. My head tells me it is ok and I should just do it. but i am trying so hard not to.

Look after yourself @Eden1919 Thinking of you.

Zoe

I am struggling today my anxiety is through the roof and I really want to just sit and cry for hours but i cant seem to. I am trying so very hard but deep down inside it hurts everywhere stinging and aching. Something inside me is screaming and crying because it is being burnt alive by the fires from hell. I am supposed to see my psychologist tomorrow but i dont know if he will be happy with me I am guessing not. the thoughts are getting very bad again i dont know what i should do but i am tired and on the brink of tears. I feel hopeless

Hi @Eden1919,

I am sorry to hear that your having a bad night,

pls remember to call the helplines if you need them - Lifeline 13 11 14 BeyondBlue 1300 22 4636 or chat here

and pls remember to use self care strategies like movies, drawing, writing, shower etc could you do any of these?

Hi @Eden1919

If your psychologist is good, they will be feeling for you, wanting to help you and not unhappy/upset with you. This isnt something that is your fault, or somethig that you are choosing.

I'm sorry things are so bad right now, i keep getting told just to focus on the present, the hour in front of me, and its good advice. Right now i'm about to go an read some more story to my very unsettled children and see if that helps them to stay in bed and start to wind down, while im reading i will try and be aware of the story and stay in the moment,

is there anythig that you can do for a little bit that would help distract?

@Eden1919

@Fancy_Pants I am trying to watch a movie atm I am just so frustrated and upset with everything.

@Former-Member Yes i am going second by second at the moment.

@Zoe7 thanks.

I am trying to make sense of things but it isnt working I want to scream my head hurts everything hurts. i dont know what to do anymore.