Safety

Can you talk to your older sister @Eden1919 - does she know what is happening for you?

@Zoe7 my older sister has no idea either none of my sisters know i dont share this sort of stuff with anyone in my family really.

That is the same with my family - I don't talk to them about anything to do with MI - I tried to talk to my sister years ago and she really didn't want to listen (at all) to the extent that she said "i don';t want to hear this" - and she is a psychologist @Eden1919 - wtf - too close to home for her maybe but would have been 'nice' to have her in my corner so I wouldn't have to do it all on my own. She is very judgemental with family though so it probably wouldn't have worked out too well anyway

@Zoe7 that sucks about your sister. mine arent judgemental they just arent easy to talk to i should probably try more but at the moment it is too much. i am really worried one of the people from my treatment team wants to see me in 2 days they have no idea what has been going on this whole time and i am scared i dont trust them and they just cant know what is going on or i will be in so much trouble i am so so so scared.

It is so difficult to have meetings like that when you don't trust the person - that would certainly be feeding into your fear @Eden1919 That really sucks.Can you discuss what is happening with someone else in your team that you do have some trust in?

@Zoe7 i dont trust anyone in that team they all want to hurt me they are the ones giving me the meds which are poison i cant talk to them about this stuff or they will hurt me. i am really scared.

Can you call your psychologisttomorrow and explain how it is making you feel being so mistrusting of the whole team? Maybe he has some suggestions for you on what to do @Eden1919

How are your worksheets going he gave you today buddy?

i cant call him he is always too busy to take calls especially if they arent an emergency. the work sheets are not going well they were supposed to make me less scared but all the did for me was confirm everything i was thinking so it kind of made things worse and now i dont know what to do.

Can you share a little of what is on them here @Eden1919 - maybe I could help you out a little

it is on checking the facts and basically you pick an emotion (fear for me) and check the facts around it to see if your fear is unreasonable. i put my fear that someone is watching me and waiting to attack me and that there is a demon stalking me then i am supposed to check the facts to see how real this fear really is. only when i did that it became even more real.