Safety

Right in this minute @Eden1919 you don't have to think about what to do apart from getting to the next minute. I know how hard it is when you don't know what to do - when you are so stuck you can't see past it - that is when we just 'survive' a moment at a time. Crying is ok - cry as much as you need. I am still here with you and listening buddy. You are doing a great job so far even though it may not seem like that - keep talking and I'll keep listening...

I'm still here with you @Eden1919

@Former-Member you still around?

Hi @Eden1919, it's clearly a very tough day for you but I can only reiterate what Rockpool and @Zoe7 have said - it's important to reach out and not sit alone with these feelings. Whether it's via phone or live chat, you retain control over what you reveal and so you can reach out for support without fearing consequences.

You have done a great job already in reaching out here for support @Eden1919 - and as @Former-Member said there is no need to talk about anything you are not comfortable talking about - try Helpline Chat - I have always found this to be a great support when I am feeling much like you do now. Imagine me sitting by your side, holding your hand and letting you know that I am with you and keeping you safe while you 'talk'. Dog and Bunny will be with us too and I'll even bring Toby for some added support - he is a great watchdog - with a huge bark for such a little dog. Here with you Eden...

Thanks sorry i went to get dressed and do a few other things i am still really paranoid it just wont stop and i cant take this like i actually cant no matter what i do it doesnt go away and i am super worried that if i call someone they will actually be the person who is stalking me and ugh i cant do this!

Wow @Eden1919 that is huge - you have achieved a few things whilst still feeling like this - do not underestimate how massive that is. I still highly recommend SANE Helpline Chat - you don't have to give your 'real' name and you don't have to talk about anything you aren't comfortable with. You also don't need to 'speak' you can type just as you are doing here. The up side is that whoever is on the other end of the conversation is a SANE moderator and not some random person who is completely unknown to you - that is very reassuring to me in times like this - that sense that it is not a 'stranger' but someone that I already 'know' and trust.

I have to try to motivate myself to get organised and get my med certificate to work this afternoon - so I will be offline for a while. I will log on and check in with you when I can and I will be sitting by your side 'in spirit' all day. Keep going Eden - you really do have alot of inner strength and I believe in you - minute by minute, hour by hour - you got this - I have faith

maybe you have too much faith although i must say thank you as your words were very kind as always. i just i feel like i am at the end like my mind and body cant take this much longer or something very bad is going to happen i only had 1 hour of sleep then i should be exhausted instead i dont feel tired not in that way i am tired of feeling like this but not actually tired every little sound is triggering me and i really dont feel very safe. i dont even know how to describe it but i cannot take it anymore i simply cant. i am sorry.i just dont feel there are other options i am really scared.

Hi @Eden1919

Sleep depreivation on top of what you're already going through would be heavily impacting you at the moment.

I'm very worried about your safety and am about to drop you an email. If you could respond there, that would be great.

Nik