Safety

@Eden1919Hi Eden, I am around for a little while if you want to talk; I have been on the sidelines mostly watching out for you. I know lots of others are caring for you too. I am sorry CATT wasn't helpful, did they give you any other altenatives? How you got out of the house this weekend at all?

@Sans911 i honestly dont know what to do anymore i dont feel like i can do this anymore and i have run out of options i cant go to hospital because of G and S the CATT team made me feel 100 times worse and i am too tired and too sad to keep doing this anymore i hardly even care about DBT anymore which was the only thing keeping me going now it feels like i have no reason to be here and whats more is G and S are telling me to go soon its like everything is pointing to one thing...... i feel completely lost and defeated i hope you are doing ok Sans.

@Eden1919I am really sorry you feel so defeated and lost, and that you feel you have no more options. Do you know what you want or need to do to keep living? What would turn things around? What would have to change to make your life a tiny bit better. I hear too you are tired and sad, can you go make yourself a cup of tea or coffee, and hug a blanket around you?

@Sans911 I dont think there is anything left to do i feel like i HAVE to end things it is more a matter of how soon. but i cant last much longer so i guess that will sort that out. i really dont know what to do i didnt even plan on still being here now but something ruined my plans. i just want to cry i honestly cant do this anymore.

@Eden1919Is there anyone you trust, professional or not, that can help you? Surely there must be other options instead of what you are discussing. What keeps you going right now?

@Sans911 no there are no other options and there are a few people i trust but i cant talk to them right now. the only thing keeping me going right now honestly is that i dont have all the stuff i need to end things but i am hoping that will change soon.

@Eden1919what can we do for you right now to take your mind off your thoughts? Thoughts are just thoughts, you know that from your DBT skills. They cannot harm you. And you have felt this way before, and are still here, of which all of us are very, very glad off. So you know these despairing feeling pass in time. So what do you want from me, the forum, right now? Distraction, chat, you name it. It's up to you

@Sans911 I just want to cry but i spent all morning crying and i cant anymore. i want it all to stop hurting i want to end things i cant do this i am sorry you seem like a really nice person and i truly wish you all the best. but i honestly think i am past help this time.

@Eden1919Thank you for your kind comments, I believe I am a nice person too. I don't think you are beyond help or you wouldn't be here on these forums talking to us. I hope that there is a small enough window of light for you to see that things can get better despite the way you feel right now. And you don't to be sorry to me. You need to be sorry to yourself , who seems to be giving herself such a hard time, expecting so much, needing help and to reach out, but just can't quite trust enough to be safe.

Can you go get a blanket Eden, wrap that tight around yourself, feel the love from me and everyone else in it?

@Moderator - can you please check on Eden by email. Thanks