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Thankyou @Zoe7

I'm an idiot. I was already feeling vulnerable and freaked out. I had the TV on and the forums open. And then I decided to watch the news which triggered me. I should have thought to change the channel or put netflix on but I didn't. I'll be alone until partner gets home from work in 5 hours or so. I'm scared.

You are not an idiot @STORMGRL101 at all - these things can come out of nowhere and often when and where we least expect it. That is often why it has so much impact. I have the tv on most times but always have the sound on mute - not just because the sound often increases my anxiety but then I don't hear anything that can trigger me when I am not actually watching a program. I also record alot of things and watch them later - this allows me to pick and choose when I watch certain things and depends entirely on my mindset and mood. This may sound really strange to some but it has helped me avoid potential triggers - far more than I used to.

While you are waiting for your partner to get home snuggle into a blanket or your favourite pjs, make a space for yourself that you feel safe in and chat here for aslong as you need. I will be around for a while tonight and I'm sure there will be many others around soon also.

Here with you @STORMGRL101

thanks @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope

I have taken a prn so hopefully things will calm down a bit soon...
In times like these I wish I could call my support worker but thats not possible.
I don't like to call the helplines because they don't know me or my story.

Hopefully you will be able to calm down soon @STORMGRL101 In the meantime we are here to keep you company

I understand the 'issue' with helplines - I can't use them because I simply can't 'talk' when I am not doing so well - words will not come out! I find it easy to type and 'talk' that way. That is why the forum is so great!

@Zoe7 Yeah, I know what you mean. I usually just freeze and don't talk.. even when I'm with my psychiatrist or psychologist. My support worker is the one I feel most comfortable with which is why she encouraged me to write a note to the psychologist to let him know how hard the last few weeks have been and what has been happening.
I think I will heat up some soup to eat and then watch something and have the forums open on the ipad. Just need to focus on keeping myself safe and getting through the night.

Great idea @STORMGRL101 - I find soup a little comforting when I am not feeling great. Keep logged on and you can connect here whenever you are feeling like you need to know someone is around for you

Uh oh. Appointment tomorrow-- I'll find out what he says about the letter I gave him. Mmmmm scared. I'm dreading it. Horrible. Baaaad. Feeling bad.

Breathe. Listen to music. Breathe. Browse the forums. Breathe. Snuggle in bed. Breathe. Sleep.

Thanks I need them @Faith-and-Hope

super worried. I hate this 😢