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Sounds like you could do with a bit of social interaction, perhaps with peers @STORMGRL101? I noticed you have a good professional support system in place, but has your mental health support worker suggested any sort of peer support groups at all? I know you have social anxiety, so would be understandably anxious about meeting new people, but it can be really rewarding and you might find you have a reason to 'bother' about life again.

Perhaps your support worker could introduce you a group local to you? You could go with your support worker to make you feel more at ease?

hello @Queenie
yes I have a bit of social interaction each week as I attend a group on Tuesdays and we go out for a walk or bike ride or a different active activity like swimming or golf. I don't talk or interact much due to the social anxiety but just getting there is a big step for me.

@STORMGRL101 well done on achieving that big step in just getting there. I can only imagine how difficult that must be. 🙂 Hugs.

I feel so often like I don't have any friends either because of my social anxiety, I feel like I'm inadequate and nothing I contribute to social interaction is worthy. But in reality, I probably do have friends. And I think you probably do too, sometimes it's hard to see straight when you're so overwhelmed with depressing and negative thoughts.

Well yesterday I was so overwhelmed with negative thoughts that my support worker took me to the hospital. I was told I could stay there overnight and they would call my psychiatrist or my partner can take me home and watch me and call my psychiatrist in the morning. So I went home. Now waiting for my psychiatrist to ring back and see what she says. Feeling empty and flat 😞 struggling to see any light at the end of the tunnel. My flame of hope is almost out.

Hi @STORMGRL101

Did you hear back from your psychiatrist? Did they provide any helpful strategies or advice?

I think at times like this, looking forward towards the light isn't the priority, looking down at your feet and putting one in front of the other is. That's my cryptic way of suggesting mindulness and grounding techniques to keep you focused on the present.

Nik

Hi @NikNik

heard back from psychiatrist but she didn't really say much except just wait for my neurotherapy to start in a cpl weeks.. she doesn't want to change my medication. Don't think anyone is taking me seriously. Ive told people I'm feeling suicidal but no ones helping me. What do I have to do for them to actually help me. Don't know whether to go back to the hospital or not. I need something to help me NOW not in a week or 2. I can't handle this...

I'm feeling worried as my partner is back on call tonight and might have to go to work. He has taken the last 4 days off to look after me but I am still struggling with SH thoughts and suicidal thoughts. I'm scared to be alone if he goes to work. I see my support worker first thing tomorrow morning so just have to get through the evening/night. Will try to cook dinner soon and maybe watch something on Netflix.

Hi @STORMGRL101, I can understand the worry and stress you must be feeling right now, with the possibility your partner may be called into work, leaving you alone with your thoughts. Remember, if it all gets too much, please call 000 if you can no longer control your suicidal ideation/self harming thoughts. As @NikNik has mentioned Lifeline and Suicide Callback Service are also great organisations to contact if you are feeling suicidal.

What is your favourite thing to watch on Netflix? Can you snuggle down after dinner and watch something you enjoy to help distract yourself from these thoughts?