sad&stuck

Thankyou for your messages of support @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Zoe7 They are what I needed to read after I have just woken from a nap and still feeling really really crappy. I was waiting for her to text me back like she said she was going to after she called the mental health team. I havent heard anything yet so doesn't look like I'll be hearing from anyone today.
I'm waiting for my partner to wake up but that will be either when he gets the phonecall to go into work or he will come downstairs and say whats for dinner and I will say I don't have a f----- clue but Im not cooking it. Looks like a takeaway night.
Then I will have to think of what to do because it is very likely he will get called in this evening and I will have to work on keeping myself safe tonight.

Ooh, so I haven't been forgotten. She just texted me saying she had contacted them for me.
Then I has a message from my dad saying 2 people just showed up there to see me and said that my psychologist had organised it. They are apparently going to ring me soon. I thought they would of had my partner's address. I wish they didnt go there. Ahhh so anxious

Hi @STORMGRL101,

I understand why you would be anxious. If you can, try and give yourself permission to put aside dealing with them going to the wrong address. You can manage that later.

For now, can you focus on distracting yourself. Is your partner up yet?

@CherryBomb I'm so scared. They are going to ring me and I am no good at expressing how I feel on the phone. My partner is still sleeping. I feel so bad. I just know my parents are going to find out how bad I feel and I feel so guilty. I can't distract myself right now..

Hi @STORMGRL101

Please don't feel guilty.

Are you concerned that your parents will worry about you? Many people can feel like a burden on others. If you feel this way, please remember that these are just thoughts, they're not necessarily true.

You are going through so much right now. Just focus on you.

Have you heard from them yet?

@CherryBomb I'm scared my parents will find out how bad I'm feeling. I don't want them to know specific details. I am a bad daughter. I haven't heard anything yet. I am assuming they don't have this address and aren't coming here but every car I hear outside is stressing me out. Am I going to end up in hospital tonight? I don't know. maybe

@STORMGRL101

I don't know your parents, nor do I know what your relationship is like with them, so feel free to let me know if I'm off track.

But I don't think you're a bad daughter. It's ok to want your privacy, and for your parents not to know. I doubt that they will be bothered, more concerned (I'm sorry if this is presumptuous). Either way, you're feeling bad, but this doesn't make you a bad person.

I'm not sure if you'll go to hospital. They will probably want to talk to you first and make an assessment first. Can you call/text them your address?

@CherryBomb Im going to hospital. I cant keep myself safe tonight so its the best option.

I'm really proud of you @STORMGRL101. Going to hospital to stay safe is the best to stay safe.

We're here for you when you need us.

@STORMGRL101 Checking in to see how you are

Did you go to hospital?

Thinking of you buddy...

Zoe