Missing everyone!

@Captain24 you're not a horrible friend or member, times have been tough both on the forums and outside of here. Be gentle with yourself sweet, you're doing your best and we're here for you ❤️.

I'm just doing my best to support people as I know how hard it is, we all find this space so helpful to connect with each other so when that's disrupted it messes with us. But we'll get through it together, nothing has changed with the love and care with have for each other, just the way we connect is different right now.

I'm hoping work goes ok for you sweet, i can imagine it would be hard at the moment but I'm hoping you can manage and then enjoy the days off after Thursday.

I don't have anything on, haven't heard from the support worker so not sure if I'll see/hear from her tomorrow.

I'm about to do some diamond art, so we'll be doing some together if you're still up for it. Sending lots of love and hugs sweetheart ❤️

I’m sorry. My distress levels are way too high. I can’t sit and do anything, diamond art or tv. I feel so restless and fidgety. I cant control my breathing. I feel really unsafe being on here. I am safe though. Just don’t feel it. I can’t calm down.

Im just going to log off. I can’t do it anymore. I’m really sorry. @MissGremlin. I hope you get some rest, it seems quieter around here like most have given up.

Please look after MissGremlin @Jynx she has been supporting everyone through this.

@Captain24 I'm sorry your distress levels are so high sweet and that it's making you feel unsafe. I hope you can feed the dogs then hop into bed and manage to get a good night's sleep, I'll be thinking of you sweet ❤️. Lots of love and hugs to you as always ❤️.

Thanks for keeping us posted @Captain24 take it slow, take it gently, and remember you are wanted here <3

Catch you on the next one hun. Hugs!

Feeling a bit frustrated, I'm so exhausted but not sleepy. I've been sitting in bed since 7.10, I did a bit of diamond art but was finding it hard to focus in between dissociating, I've got Buffy on in the background, Casper snuggled up with me and I'm trying to do some crochet. Kind of not feeling connected to my body tonight, it's a strange and scary feeling. I'm safe for now, really wanting to sleep so I don't have to think or feel anything.

Hope sleep finds you soon hun <3

@MissGremlin

@Jynx I really hope so but brain is all scattered tonight. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle, like no matter what i do it's eventually going to happen anyway. I'm safe for now, physically exhausted to even do anything despite those thoughts being there. Casper is all snuggled up next to me, I'm switching between episodes of Buffy and Angel.

@MissGremlin I'm hearing you hun and hearing how exhausting it is. I know when the tunnel is the darkest it can be hard imagining ever feeling better, but I know that you will. It may not be tomorrow but it will come.

Please keep reaching out, keep Casper close, and keep staying connected when you can. The community is here for you <3

@Jynx trying so hard to keep holding on for that time. You're right that its hard to imagine things feeling better, the darkness is so consuming (I'm safe for now).

Thought I'd try to connect to a crisis service but it's unable to connect me unfortunately. Thankyou sweet, I'm glad I've got the community here. Hope you have a good rest of your night ❤️.

After hours of not being sleepy I'd finally managed to doze off but I was only asleep for a very short time before waking up in a complete panic. The cold that I had almost recovered from has hit me again so hard, I'm so sore and my throat is scratchy. Being unwell mentally is a struggle then add being physically unwell and it makes everything so much harder.

I'm feeling very shaky, I'm trying to calm myself down so that I can hopefully get some more sleep. Part of me wants to take pain relief but I'm not sure if I should. I'm safe for now, listening to the rain outside and snuggling Casper. Just feel very alone right now and scared.