Feeling not so great

@Flutterbug9 each professional is individual too. Glad you have a decent psychiatrist. I was actually just writing up some of my issues with medical and mental health professionals. I had 2 who were always boasting about their lecturing roles, one was a psychologist, and one psychiatrist. I have socialised with lecturers too, they are very human, and some are more humble and honest than others.

I now feel more critical, but still keep a hopeful mindset. I dont let upsetting things go on for too long anymore. I am working on, speaking up and trying to work things out. My current workers are decent. I dont expect too much. I do believe in the therapeutic process, and have my own quals, but a big traumaload.

I don’t have any quals but have a lot of life experiences from things I grew up plus through decades of face to face customer service which involved helping people from both ends of capacity spectrum and everything in between. I’ve worked along side social workers assisting people in dire circumstances @Appleblossom

growing up I never realised the huge expanse there was between my childhood home and what was “normal” compared to other people’s homes. I carry a large trauma load, some of which is linked to intergenerational involving multiple generations.

Ive had interactions with good and not good people in the medical profession, from GPs to psychiatrists. Whilst I was working I tapped into support through EAP providers at different times, some good and others a waste of my time.

thing that has got big red lights flashing in my mind currently is current and previous psychologists are employed by and work through the same psychology group. I’m paying full attention to the red lights whilst determined to not “tar with same brush”.

2 things my dad taught me at a young age and have never failed me. ‘Always treat people the way you want to be treated’. ‘No matter what position a person holds, no one is better than anyone else.’

Hearing you. @Flutterbug9 its best not to over generalise. Yes, there are dedicated genuine people out there doing their best.

Wise words from your dad. Sounds like you have done a lot of working through your family and personal issues. I have done my darn best too. It is what it is, I guess.

Yes, as we grow up, we do not realise all the different ways other people live, whether it be culturally, racially, religious, or class, or personality, arts, sports, and professional or tradie style.

@Appleblossom in brief, from the outside my childhood home looked similar to others in the Anglo Saxon neighbourhood. Bit smaller than most but similar. It was only if a person was in a select small number who my parents allowed into the house where the expanse started to become noticeable. There was only 3 rooms …. Bedroom, kitchen and lounge room. During the school holidays at end of grade 6 I was moved from unpainted, unfinished bedroom that I had always shared with my parents into my own unpainted, unfinished bedroom. No power point in either room.

It was not until I was in my mid 40’s before a counsellor joined lots of pieces together and gave me an understanding of how the death of a special relative when I was 9yo had showed up in different aspects of my life from that day onwards.

I’ve done some work on things in my past. Now mainly looking for ways to keep going and reasons to keep going. Looking for info for why to various things eg reactions etc

hello @MissGremlin@Taali@Nala2022@Jynx@AuntGlow@Honeymoon@Dimity@NightFury@Jacques@Captain24@DogMan79@Chasingsunsets@eth@EternalFlower@Eve7@Shaz51@Cuddlebear@Bunniekins@Appleblossom - how are you?

made it, already in bed, been up since 5:30am and I’m wrecked.

but it’s lovely we are right next to the beach. I can hear the waves crashing. It’s so therapeutic.

Fabulous. I was thinking of you @Fluttershy1 Wondering how it was. The sound of waves can be great, very regular ... but with that weird ... in real life ... mild sense of not being exact.... more flow...

Sleep well when you do.

That's great @Fluttershy1 OMG I found it difficult to type your name WTF?

Take care of yourself

Taali 💜

Hello @Fluttershy1 sweet, I'm glad you made it. I hope you can get a good sleep tonight, maybe the waves crashing will help ❤️

@Appleblossom @Nala2022 @MissGremlin plus anyone else reading this

9 June I completed 5 online questionnaires at request of my psychologist. DASS21, PCL-5 and 3 that relate to ADHD and Autism characteristics. End of July I asked psychologist what outcomes were for these, I’m still waiting. I think the results might have been provided to my psychiatrist but I don’t know

can the results be provided directly to me, if I no longer see the psychologist or can results only be provided to my local GP?

@Flutterbug9  I'm not sure, but surely you should be able to get a copy of the results even if it's through your GP maybe? Thinking of you sweetheart ❤️.