Riding a wave

Wow @Catcakes so much to deal with

Is there a reason you can't acknowledge his birthday? Can you do something simple for yourself that nobody else knows about - like light a candle? You will know why but no-one else needs to if that is what you need.

@Catcakes Over the next 10 days I have my birthday (which I don't celebrate), my puppy dog's birthday (which I do celebrate lol) and the anniversay of my Nan dying. It is going to be a rollercoaster of emotions on top of how low I am already. So I can definitely understand how difficult the period leading up to Christmas is - even without the added stress of your partner having multiple injuries and an unwell mother.

Yeah probably a good idea to stop drinking if you are driving tomorrow @Catcakes

Alot of people say sh*t - it is just always the way I have written it lol

There is support 'behind the scenes' here @Catcakes but the primary focus is peer-to-peer support so the moderators will only 'jump in' or intervene if guidenlines have been breached, there is conflict between members that is not being resolved or someone is in crisis - in this case they will personally email you also.

I know none of that actually helps you right now but I am here with you and I hope that is helping you a little.

My puppy's name is Toby - he will be 4 on the 18th December

Sometimes just letting things out - being allowed to 'talk' - can have a claming effect @Catcakes - that is what I find anyway

Wehad planned to have a Dog's Birthday Day on the 18th but I doubt I will be up to it. This is the longest I have been back on the forum for well over a week. The funny thing is that it has been quite easy to be here tonight because it is so quiet - less possibilty of being triggered and not too many people in conversations to get lost between.

You are definitely on the edge @Catcakes but your coninued interaction here with me shows me that you are more angry and emotionally drained than you are to harm yourself - and emotionswe can work through

Not a burden at all @Catcakes. I am so pleased we have helped you a little and look forward to chatting again. Take care @Catcakes (as much as you can anyway)