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Riding a wave

Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor

Riding a wave

Hi all,

@CherryBomb, @Former-Member or any other @Former-Member floating around Forum Land, will you ride a wave with me? I thought I would be fine doing something...but it turns out that the something has made my big feelings BIG and now I'm in a pickle...and there's nothing worse than a pickled turtle! I'm going to go and snuggle in my bed so I probably won't actually respond to you, but it will still super help me to know that I am not utterly alone on the wave. I don't want to tag anyone else because I don't want anyone to feel they need to respond. Thank you in advance for riding with me.

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Zoe7Senior Contributor

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Being privileged enough to be seen as your aquaintance is enough for me @Phoenix_Rising I will say goodnight to you now little turtle as I need to log off and try to get myself together a bit

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CheerBearSenior Contributor

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Wonky days are tricky, as are sleep issues @Phoenix_Rising. Only one sleep until Turtle Whisperer Tuesday eve and hopefully that will help unwonk some things. You've got this too!

I did get through the module and I SO much found value in objective, relationship, self respect! It was the shift that I needed. I want to feel proud of myself after this interaction. That's what I am going with 🙂 Tomorrow will be ok enough I think. Tuesday maybe not, but I will survive. I'm so glad to have you + pocket crew with me, thank you.

Thank you also for letting me know about the yes and how to find a yes or no. I will look forward to your post in the morning 🙂

Night (again) Phoenix_Rising and goodnight @Zoe7 and @Former-Member 🙂

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor

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Thursday night was hard, and Friday was hard and Saturday was hard and Sunday was hard and today is hard. I feel utterly alone with the hardness. I don't understand anything that happened on Thursday night and I know that the big feelings aren't going to even begin to settle until I've had a chance to properly talk it through with someone. It feels so cruel that it has just been left to drag on and on and on. I do not understand.

Earlier today I was looking at the first page of this thread. I simply cannot fit the contents of that page together with the events of Thursday night. I feel super scared and utterly bewildered.

I so very very badly need to talk it out. But I know it would be inappropriate to do it here...and I have nowhere else. Once again, I can feel my brain melting just that little bit more.

I am trying to bail out the Titanic with a teaspoon, and on Thursday night another massive wave washed over the side. It is utterly impossible for me to even remotely keep up with the waves that keep coming. I truly have no hope anymore that I will ever be able to heal my brain enough to be able to have any sort of a career. Twelve years at university, only to spend the rest of my life on welfare. Yay for me.

I haven't left my house since Thursday. The whole world feels scary right now. It truly feels like the world has turned completely upside down, and I feel utterly alone in the muddle.

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Unknown userMember

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I’m sorry things are the messy, muddled way they are, @Phoenix_Rising. 🙁 I know there is nothing I can say to make anything even the slightest bit better, but know that I hear you (I really hear you) and I am here in the ocean. 🙁

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CheerBearSenior Contributor

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I am here in the world that feels upside down and really scary at the moment @Phoenix_Rising with you also. Things that melt brains that are left to drag on, are cruel. I wish I had a spoon. A really giant enormous one.

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor

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I have worked superly duperly hard at being patient, coping, and surviving all day, but I am starting to ultra struggle. All those thoughts of nobody hears me, I don't matter, anybody can do anything to me are super gigantically growing. I don't understand any of this.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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Hi @Phoenix_Rising ......

Will it help to see if @Former-Member or
@Former-Member or @Former-Member are here ?

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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor

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@Faith-and-Hope Well it would but my understanding is that it's now bad to ask for a moderator to appear. I'm SO muddled.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor

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It might just be use of the @ Moderator tag @Phoenix_Rising ..... if so, then having that clarified might help.

We have been able to tag mods by name in the past and it's been okay ..... let's see what
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