Riding a wave

I hope you get some sleep too, @CheerBear and that tomorrow is less wonkified. 🦄 🌷

Good evening @CheerBear and @Former-Member,

I'm sad that today was wonky for you CheerBear.

My day has been peaceful enough, but very unproductive. My brain has definitely been further puddled by Thursday's adventure. Maybe it got waterlogged in the storm! I don't think much is going to happen around here in the real world until I've had a chance to work through the muddle with someone from SANE and I'm not entirely sure when that might be. Obviously not until at least Monday. Back in the waiting place for now!

@CheerBear I am so sorry that you are facing the loss of your K. I truly can relate to the agony of that. Next month it will be 2 years since K left my world and the grief is still extremely raw. I super wish I could do more than sit with you in your grief.

@Former-Member I see that you now have your very own corner in TOR. It looks AMAZING!!!!

The only thing I did today was play with my DBT post. It is now sitting as a complete draft here in Forum Land. I will post it first thing Monday morning. Just before the storm hit on Thursday, I think you asked me about who I emailed re. the post @CheerBear??? Yep, I emailed team@saneforums.org

Since I got a "yes," I'll tell you what I was asking. I've included a link to a really cool youtube clip. The thing is, it is produced by a psychology practice in Sydney and I wasn't sure if this was an issue. Thus I was asking if it was ok to include it. And I got a yes - yay.

Good night all ocean dwellers. The whole pocket crew is snuggled in your pocket tonight @CheerBear, sitting with you in your wonkiness. I'm not quite sure where @Former-Member is right now - either snuggled under all the teddies in the inner sanctum of the underwater cave, or snuggled in her corner of TOR. Oh well, so long as you are snuggled SOMEWHERE bookish!

Goodnight @Zoe7 even though you aren't here - because I know you are here even when you aren't. And I am superly duperly glad you are here. Right now you and CheerBear are the only constants in an extremely muddled puddled cofuddled world. Is it really so odd that I have attachment issues when every time I turn around, someone else who matters to me seems to have vanished, taken a step back, or pushed me away in some way! Everybody leaves.

Anyway, the inside of CheerBear's pocket looks the same as always and all the pocket crew are here, so for right now, all I need to do is snuggle and be still.

Night all.

My book corner in TOR is super amazing, but I’m back in the inner sanctum of the underwater cave for the night. I hope that’s okay, @Phoenix_Rising. Wishing you and @CheerBear (and @Zoe7) a restful night and may dawn spill her light over an unwonky day tomorrow. Goodnight. 🌷🦄🐢🦋

@Phoenix_Rising I can not say that I will never leave you little turtle as we both know unexpected things can happen - but what I can say is that I will do everything in my power to be here for you when I can. We both maintain a 100% success rate of surviving each day and as long as we can keep that up then I will be around - sitting on my rock stack, sitting on Gen Giraffe in the ocean, bunkered down in the underwater cave, hiding deep in the inner sanctum amongst the teddies, fluttering around TOR, and even the ocassional visit to the nest to stop by and see the wonderful @CheerBear. I now have also formed a pretty strong like for @Former-Member also (she is awesome ) so day by day, and little by little by little, I am finding my way back - so the 100% success rate is looking more promising for the future also.

Here, even when I'm not (and sometimes not here when I am lol) and always thinking of my little turtle 'aquaintance'.

Flippers Up!

I hope Sunday has been kind to you, @Phoenix_Rising. 🐢 Goodnight, my favourite sea turtle. 🌷

Thanks for dropping by the ocean @Former-Member. Today has been a very wonky day, as I see it has also been for you and others around here. I have spent far too much of the day in bed, such that sleep is not going to come easy tonight. I am having more sleeping issues these days than I've ever had in my life - though still not nearly as bad as many others around here.

Realistically, things are not going to improve around here until the gigantic muddle of Thursday night has been properly worked through. Hopefully that will be in the next day or two. Right now I'm in THE WAITING PLACE.

@Zoe7 I know you cannot say you will never leave - that is why you are not my friend. I always knew that the friend who walked out of my world last year would be the last friend I would ever have. It has simply happened too many times. Prior to that person, my previous attempt at friendship was in 2006/07. It lasted about twelve months before she walked out of my world - after calling the police when I turned up at her house one night distressed. At the time I thought she would be my last friend, but then N walked into my world and after a looooooooong time I learnt to trust her. She walked out of my world in December last year. That's it for me. I know that no matter how sincere someone sounds or how many promises they make, they will leave, creating yet another indelible memory of grief and loss. Nope, I am definitely never doing the friend thing ever again. I will stick with my not-friend, my favourite aquaintance and my new you-interest-me-and-I-super-like-you aquantance...which I guess makes @Former-Member my yimaisly aquaintance.

Oh by the way @Former-Member, I read somewhere that you don't have a couch or armchair. Me neither!!!!! I moved out of the home of my family-of-origin in 1997 and I've never quite got around to buying a couch or armchair. One of my quirks is that I super like sitting/lying on the floor. So...I have an office chair at my desk (where I am right now) and I have a stool in the kitchen where I sit at the kitchen bench to eat sometimes (often I sit on the floor), and that's it. It's always really funny when a tradesman or someone comes. They don't notice the lack of a couch until they go to sit down to write up the bill. Then you can see this really puzzled look on their face.

Anyway, thanks again for dropping by.

Together but not here on the ocean again @CheerBear. Tomorrow's mindfulness post is all set and ready to appear in the morning. I know you have a superly duperly tricky day coming up. Did you get through the IE module. Remember, objective, relationship, self-respect! (You'll only understand that if you have read the module ). You've got this!!!!! I'm so super glad I can come along for the ride.