Riding a wave

@Faith-and-Hope I SUPER love that picture that you posted last night.

Good night Forum Land. Look at me, I don't need to ask the moderator to check in, because the ocean is so super calm and I feel snuggly and safe inside my shell. The whole world feels different for having found therapist-take-twelve. I feel calmer and safer than I have since the final showdown with Fred two years ago. For the first time in two years, I genuinely feel hopeful that I can find my way out of my muddle. I am super looking forward to my first session with therapist-take-twelve on Tuesday. I hope she doesn't get squished by a bus or something before then. Knowing the way things tend to go in my life, that seems like a distinct possibility!

Hey @Former-Member, I have a feeling you aren't usually around on Fridays but I figure you will read this some time. We currently have gale-force winds here in Sydney and all I can think about is that it is probably because the moon has been wearing underpants. I just wanted to tell you that. Yep, you've definitely made me more nuts than I already was!

The wind really is super strong around here. I hope I don't fly away...

@Phoenix_Rising - I just wanted to check-in and let you know that The Little Mermaid is watching over the ocean tonight for the Little Turtle. Hoping the sun shines brightly for you tomorrow!

Awwwww you beat me here @Former-Member. I feel all warm and fuzzy.

I'm super glad you are here and that you are a mermaid. I have big missing CherryBomb feelings. I super super super miss her tonight. The chocolate fountain reminded me of her because when she was here she jumped into the fountain and drank it all. I superly duperly miss her right now.

Ok, well I will snuggle in my shell and feel the snuggly safe feeling of knowing that you are watching over the ocean. Good night @Former-Member.

Hi @Phoenix_Rising

I do read your story and see your life as an act of bravery - mine too actually

The only place I feel comfortable telling my story now is Life Line and that has worn thin through time - the story I mean - not Life Line - I have reached a stage when I am tired of it - and chosen never to write my son's story as I promised him I would - it has become very private over time and so has a lot of mine - I no longer want to repeat it -

Maybe just going from day to day is an act of bravery - actually as I was typing this I thought yes - for some people living from one hour to the next is incredibly courageous - I admire people with that kind of courage - for your kind of courage

So I really like the ocean - even Port Phillip Bay - soon I will see Sydney Harbour again after such a long time - I love the way it changes - I enjoy watching storms - I don't think I will be inclined to take the Whale Watching Tour though - if there is any choppy looking sea about

But thinking about this I think it is courageous to live your life on the ocean - or to think of it as an ocean

So was it a Freudian slip when I looked for my own little turtle and found a tortoise? Maybe in spite of my love of the ocean I only want to watch it from the land.

Yes - I do see you as courageous

Dec - and the little tortoise

Goodmorning @Phoenix_Rising

That was the best thing to read first thing on my Monday morning, I am imagining you flying over the harbour yelling politely at the moon to "please remove it's underwear" !

But yes I believe that happened over the weekend, not sure why the underwear made such an impact they must have been really tight and restrictive ones?! The wind has calmed down here now, is it calm there today?

Hi @Former-Member

I really have to laugh about the moon and it's underwear - actually - seeing as it's the dark of the moon right now no one could see

So - I am hoping Syndey Harbour is quiet and peaceful and that taking the ferry will not be an over-exciting experience

Hi @Phoenix_Rising

I wish you the best today and hope your ocean is calm so you can get on with your life a bit - taking the therapy quietly - sometimes I think you might know a bit more than your therapist. This could be true of a lot of things and about our story - we know more about our story than anyone else

I hope you have at least a peaceful day

Dec

Good morning ,

The ocean has been super calm all weekend and remains so today. I am working a bit on my Forum Land addiction - hence why I have been quiet over the past couple of days.

@CheerBear I super love that you had a 'moment' imagining yourself as cheerbear lying on a unicorn floatie. That is such a nice image.

@Former-Member Yes, yes, it's all very amusing that you have corrupted me such that I now have intrusive thoughts about the moon wearing underpants. Imagine if I ever try to discuss THAT issue with a mental health professional. Phew, good thing Dr Havetodo is so understanding! The wind has gone now. It's just overcast and rather chilly here today.

@Owlunar Thank you for your kind words. I'm not sure that I am really that brave. I think it's more a matter of just doing what I have to do. My ocean is beautifully calm at the moment and I have been able to get on with some things I've been wanting (and needing) to do for ages. I have no doubt at all that you are correct in saying I know more than my therapist - both all my past therapists and also therapist-take-twelve who I am having my first session with tomorrow. I am very confident that I am the expert on my life. I know what I need. The super challenge has been finding a therapist who gets that, and who can meet me where I'm at. I am extremely hopeful that therapist-take-twelve is the one. Here's hoping that I'm right!

I hope you are having a nice day @Owlunar. I also hope you have fun in Sydney. I went on a ferry a few weeks ago for the first time in decades. I was in the city and just impulsively decided to take a trip to Manly. It was super fun.