Depressed with my situation, later 50s

Hello my dear "later 50s" crew members @Shaz51 @mrmista @TAB @Glisten - love seeing you all here.

I hear my neighbours watching the footy..... they are yelling a lot.

I don't really undersand footy on ANZAC day... and maybe I never will 🙂

(Actually, maybe I don't understand footy on any given day!)

@tyme No I haven’t seen the application for NDIS provider registration.

I understand what you’re saying and I believe that unscrupulous people or businesses are the few and not the majority.

The repercussions when vetting systems fail is extensive. Someone has to be held accountable.

@TAB

ah mate, in that l'll go to all that work spend my last razooo and MH , building but then don't like it here, yeah for sure.

l mean l'd feel much better if all that was a hell yes. 😂

But the main thing that's pretty well same thing and all else anyway, is pretty basic stuff. lt's a long bloody way from my main town and anything else.

gonna be a gamble. @mrmista you'll work it out one day.

Ahh @tonys I miss him like a brother. We all miss him don’t we @TAB

@mrmista, tonys was one of the most memorable, unique, skilled, talented and thoughtful people, that I have met in Forumland.

tonys had an uncanny ability to read people with little or no information.

When I say, read people, I don’t mean the ABCD personality theory. I mean he could see your core. The original part of you, before life left layers of survival debris and emotional scars.

tonys past was horrific, but by the time we met he was very happy with his partner The Bookkeeper. He had recovered from surgery for physical injuries he had suffered years ago. The last we heard about tonys was via The Bookkeeper (@Gemma - I’ve forgotten the rest of her tag @TAB )

tonys had missed a step going down cellar stairs without the light on, taking most of the banister with him. It was a bad head injury.

There are many of us that wouldn’t have made it through our struggles if it wasn’t for tonys.

I think about him occasionally and hope life has been good to him.

@TAB why am I telling @mrmista about tonys?

Is it the part where he lived in his car and worked on farms until he made enough money to buy a house? 🤷🏼‍♀️

cos he built his own house?

cos his advice to me could apply to @mrmista

@Glisten

@TAB

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how's things goin at your place and situation anyway Tab ?

How long you been there btw ?

.. 3 years 1 month @mrmista just looked it up.

working on health issues at glacial pace.

3.5yrs to age pension.

I still have moments where I think wtf am I doing here

its comfortable.

given up on trying to fit in here. Not who I am.

House quite liveable. will try and do carport and pergola ie easilyremoved when I'm dead and gone and not over capitalising.

Only thought the other day how I spent months with no little to no furniture, plastic chairs , laptop on a box.

I still have ideas, but they would take all my finances. so its a juggling act between health, wants , needs and accepting thingsat least for time being. age pension would be extra 300 fortnight but by then prob have no super left if no work in next 3.5 years. I re trained year before last. had a few bites, got too hard basket. standard take was you have to do full time away from home. Got pet thats my only friend lol. so that was ONE of my push pulls work/pet, another was getting really good jobs only to fail medical

So yeah, my path not straight forward. I planted some trees. want to see them grow up.theres also couple random factors but they are so unlikely now as not to matter. ie overseas inheritance poss aroun$80k, spent $6k on lawyers who said walk in park, guess what, missing ID docs for dead people as told them from get go. there is vague chance they may decide I am who I say I am, but not really likely. also revisiting a claim on former employer for a few grand standard issue no proof, sign never to try anything again claim , in progress again, but again, unlikely now.

Ah man don't be too hard on yourself sat on boxes a few times in houses and clutched at all kinds of financial things supposedly coming through at different times.

Many disappointments, like last house, long story but end of day after 8yrs couldn't get my cut , bit like some of your stuff. That was a place l got into after divorce was suppose to reset me up, so much for that so hence falling back on this place now.

l decided to go of vanning at the finish of that house, a break, think, de-stress, chill, make some choices, maybe some blessing comes from above while l'm at it right but alas, nice time but no blessings so l'm back here now.

Knew it wouldn't cost much so l could scrape through, was bloody nice.

The fitting in things hard l know, me ex and daughter came up this way 20yrs ago, 100k over from here, both from the city though but so been awhile now.

These days l kinda found some midway thing where l at least roughly fit, they know l'm different but same time , there's a little bit of local in me too these days. lt gets better.

Ya still a young bloke mate really, if you get on top of the health stuff still lots of time to do soma that.

Planted all th trees on this place to 15yrs ago, was a sheep paddock, really nice now. Really satisfying isn't it, l'm a tree hugger.

But eh, ya never know with all that mate. Bloke cross the rd at my old house woke up being a millionaire one morning after some 15yr court thing.

Just scraping here too, mainly coz l don;t wanna go back to work. lf l play cards right could scrape by till pension, tis the hope. Especially if l just bloody stayed here l'd be laughin, bugger.

Hang in there anyway eh, here anytime.

Just saying I'm okay enough with where I am @mrmista , like you its the what if's

I could still get a bike and a shed , but could end up losing everything as that would be end of any cash reserve

long since forgotten about selling and moving.

havent done it in a while but Adelaide still accessable, used to go stay in old haunt motel and be anonymous there ha ha . I can go for alks where I used to , go to beach I used to and come back here batteries charged again, 😁