Constant flashbacks

Yeah, makes sense. They'd probably recommend TMS before ECT anyway. @creative_writer

I don't know much about either. I was recommended both in the past, but I never went through with it.

Yet I know others who have had TMS and others who have had ECT. Seems to shake things around a bit - in a good way. To me, it seems like a bit of a restart. I don't know the specifics though

@tyme I had to take a PRN today, the restlessness left me migrainey and nauseous. I probably could’ve broken the cycle earlier because my body was super stressed, maybe I did wait a bit too long. I do still feel pretty rough physically, but bed time isn’t far away. I’m still running on the same body clock before daylight savings ended, it felt too risky to adjust my body clock by one hour when bipolar is already shaky.

On the positive, I at least didn’t get to the active suicidal phase and just had fleeting thoughts. I don’t want a repeat of what happened earlier this year. It did get pretty serious earlier this year, I was lucky I got support just in time.

I would also guess that TMS would be recommended first because it’s less invasive.

I see my psych, dietician and psychiatrist in the week coming. I just had a lot going on recently. Sometimes stressors like bereavement can also worsen existing mental health struggles.

I hope today has been a good day for you 😊

Sure sounds like a lot has been going on for you. Sounds like it can be sooooo exhausting! Well done on pushing through and doing what you can to stay well.

As I said, I don't know much about TMS or ECT. It was just a fleeting thought 🙂

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

My day's been okayish. Went for a night walk with the dog. The sun was lovely. It'll be lovely where I am for the next week, so I'm looking forward to it. I'm a bit bummed that daylight savings has ended. I like daylight savings. I get so much more done! @creative_writer

@tyme I don’t know a whole deal about ECT and TMS. I’m just being guided on my psychiatrist for medical option.

I have savoury muffins and uni stuff to do. I’m going to schedule a workout and try to get a full shower (wash hair day).

The sun can indeed be lovely. We have to enjoy the warmer weather while it lasts.

Do you have much planned for tomorrow?

I recently bought a waffle maker so I want to try all these savoury things. I'm thinking of making something like a hash brown using grated potato in the waffle maker. Maybe next weekend.

Tomorrow I have a few meetings on. I have a training session on Type 1 Diabetes, then I have 3 meetings after that... @creative_writer

So my day is full. Then I hope to take Ruby out if the sun is still out. Otherwise, I might have to take the kids to their swimming lesson, depending on if my sister needs my help.

Once the kids are back to school (tomorrow), all their extra curricular activities resume

@tyme hash browns sound delicious. I made the savoury muffins this morning for the next few day.

I hope the meetings and training go okay. I hope you are able to have a chill evening after a full on day.

Yes, the kiddos would be back now. Do you go swimming too? I used to have swimming lessons as a child

Hey @creative_writer ,

Glad to see you. My first day back today after a break so I'm catching up on posts.

I haven't done any more with the waffle maker. I've barely had time to breathe!

How are you managing?

@creative_writer the 'burdensome' thoughts can be tough to wrangle, especially in a society that has instilled values of individualism and 'coping alone is strength/leaning on people is weakness' into us. Learning to sit with that discomfort is difficult but the more we do it, the more we lean on others, the easier it gets.

Hope you're well 💜

@tyme sometimes it can be hard to find time to make food. I’m making progress in therapy according to my psych. I’m still been going through the grief process. How has your day been 😊?

@Jynx I feel like I need a middle ground between being too independent and enmeshment. I’ve naturally become independent as a result of enmeshment. I struggle with anxiety around too much closeness and feeling suffocated. It doesn’t translate well in situations where the other person is extremely anxious and has abandonment issues. I’m aware it’s something I’ll need to work one, especially if I’m going to work with clients. How are you today? 💖

@creative_writer definitely a balance to be found, for sure. We can become very sensitive to it hey.

I am going okay, been a bit warmer so I got out for a walk which was nice 😊