creative_writerSenior Contributor
Constant flashbacks
Does anyone else struggle with daily flashbacks? I keep getting somatic flashbacks day after day and it’s so exhausting
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Constant flashbacks
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JynxModerator
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@creative_writer what do you think your supports would say if they knew that you felt like 'an annoying patient'?
Grief and trauma can be unrelated but also can be very much related... I think anger and restlessness make sense in the wake of so much loss.
Hope they're helpful appts hun 🤞💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx I never asked them if I was annoying. I’ve been referred to having “complex presentation” and have been treated as a nuisance by a previous mental health clinician. I guess I’ve sort of internalised that.
I’m just trying to figure it out. I was so angry the other day and had to go on a walk to get the anger out.
Hopefully I can get to a better place again. I’ve just had a lot of stress on top of my already existing mental health struggles
I’m just trying to figure it out. I was so angry the other day and had to go on a walk to get the anger out.
Hopefully I can get to a better place again. I’ve just had a lot of stress on top of my already existing mental health struggles
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JynxModerator
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@creative_writer could be worth reflecting on how being treated that way might still be impacting you? If you're unconsciously worried about being 'annoying' or 'too complex', it might mean you're not able to be as open with those supports to whom those things may not even matter.
Sounds rough but I'm glad to hear that you went for a walk - I think exercise is a fantastic way to regulate anger.
Aye it's hard to process and do that deep work when there's so much going on, but you're doing amazingly hun.
Hope you have a good rest tonight 💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Jynx I never really thought about it until you mentioned it. I do get the "I am a burden" thoughts. I know people are willing to be there for me in my personal life, but I do feel guilty when leaning on people. I do know there will be there for me, and I don't think they will walk away, but it still feels uncomfortable at times. There have been people in my life who I felt like I couldn't lean on in the past. I'm not saying that it wasn't painful letting those friendships go, it felt like small compared to everything I experienced in my life, so I could cope. I also couldn't lean onto my parents either. Letting go of those friendships was good for me because I made more fulfilling friendships with people I could lean on and be my genuine self with.
I hope you had a restful night 💜. It took me a while to fall asleep but I got there in the end
I hope you had a restful night 💜. It took me a while to fall asleep but I got there in the end
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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I’m not sure if I’m in orange zone, my head feels sore. I need to get some sleep tonight, especially since I feel super restless
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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Waiting for the meds to kick in, feeling quite nauseous
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tymeModerator
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Oh dear @creative_writer . Hope you feel better soon. Must be nasty that you feel so nauseous.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@tyme I think my brain software need updating, it’s overloaded and crashing. Only way to get an update is by sleeping, and I’m anticipating it might take a bit longer to get to that full sleepy state. I’m going to try to brush my teeth and hope that’ll help with the mouth taste
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tymeModerator
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i like that analogy about your brain needing a software update. Makes a lot of sense to me. I hope sleeping helps with the update.
Have you ever had TMS or ECt before @creative_writer
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@tyme sometimes software can be glitchy like brains. Sometimes words can feel clunky and disjointed. My brain is too far but also can’t keep up.
I haven’t ever tried ECT or TMS, it’s not something my psychiatrist has ever suggested. I don’t feel comfy with ECT because I already struggle with memory, I need to be able to concentrate with uni
I haven’t ever tried ECT or TMS, it’s not something my psychiatrist has ever suggested. I don’t feel comfy with ECT because I already struggle with memory, I need to be able to concentrate with uni
