Depression- Really Struggling- may be triggering

i just want the pain to go away @Mazarita

both mentally and physically. im sick of being tired and sick and hurting or being completely numb.

i just want it to stop, i dont know how to make that happen.

people say go to therpay to get better but every time i go i come out feeling worse and its jsut about to get into the deeper stuff

@Former-Member, perhaps your therapy is not working so well for you. There may be other options instead of or as well as what you have in place now. Personally, I've not had much luck with psychologists but have had a lot of help from psychiatrists over a long time. I would never suggest dropping your therapy when there is nothing else in place. But it can be worthwhile reviewing your options if you really feel that it is not helping you.

im in a self harm and suicidal prevention program and both my psychologist and my gp and my psychiatrist think its very important that i go, i guess i should be going to it. she said we can go as slow as i want but i dont think i can go any slower otherwise itll be a waste of time going. hopefully that makes sense.

my psychologist put me in the program to do first then i go back to doing dbt therapy and then eventually exposure therapy

@Mazarita

@Former-Member, okay, that all sounds important to engage with whenever you can. But maybe believe them when they say you can go as slow as you like. Often we don't notice when small changes are happening because they are subtle on a day to day level, but it all adds up to a big change over time. You said something about not taking your meds too. Again, these things are entirely your choice and I think it's important to remember that. But, from my own personal perspective from being in similarly distressing states earlier in my life, I consider meds to have been a life saver for me. I'm still not 100% perfect about timing of them but I do always take them every day. Helps keep me way less depressed, anxious and overall more even with my moods. Take it or leave it advice, of course.

im on SSRI and antipsychotics i do take them everyday twice a day, just every now and then i forget to take one of them but not often. @Mazarita

maybe one day ill be ok, how i cope till then is another story, but i think for now im logging off, my migraine is really giving me a hard time.

i really appreciate your help @Mazarita

That's great, @Former-Member, sorry if I misread your earlier post. Thanks for letting me share your personal space this morning. I feel like we've got to know each other better. I'm really glad for that. Take it easy today.

@Former-Member, has something happened with your sisters since we were chatting just a little earlier? I don't have any sisters or brothers and don't have any critical thoughts about what you said at all. Just sorry that you are feeling this way. Crying is okay too, sometimes helpful. Sounds like there are quite a few people living at your place? Is it a big house? Lack of personal space can sometimes create tensions between people too.