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Does it ever stop

Does it ever stop

Hey - I feel like I can’t escape how I feel, how I react to things, how flashbacks and people I see that have caused me trauma in the past and present. I feel like I’m just trapped in it some days constantly and that it just wants to stay and haunt me and not leave.

my house mates have been arguing constantly and it got to a point tonight where I yelled at them to stop as it is getting annoying as it’s nearly everyday and it never stops. Then one of them had a go at me and started yelling and telling me that it’s the other persons fault when it wasn’t even them. It’s just a constant run around and I can’t seem to escape it.

im just now curled up on my bed in tears because I’m so triggered and I don’t know what or how I’m feeling.

im safe

but it’s just bringing up all my past all over again.

@Shaz51 @Bow @Jacques @Jynx @tyme @Blackbird11 @Meowmy @outlander @Historylover @Snowie @eth @Zoe7 and if I’ve missed anyone please tag them

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Hai @Nala2022 - nice to see you.

things where just to much at the other place so I left, it wasn’t safe for me anymore, I was getting threatened. It was just a lot.

im living back with Mum but that’s only till I’m back on my feet. I got APARC tomorrow and I haven’t even packed for that and I’m stressing about that aswell. There’s just a lot to consider.

but the cats are happy to have me back hehehe.

 

 

 

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@Fluttershy1 I’m really sorry to hear things escalated to the point where you didn’t feel safe. That sounds like a lot to deal with, especially alongside having to suddenly move and sort out where you’re staying.

It makes sense that you’re feeling stressed with everything happening at once, including APARC tomorrow and not even having had time to pack yet. That’s a lot of pressure in a short space of time.

I’m really glad you’re back somewhere you can be with your cats and that they’re bringing you some comfort right now, they're very cute💛

Hopefully today can be about just taking things one step at a time and getting through what you need to for tomorrow

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Can you stay and chat for abit @Nala2022 - I also have my bunnies here aswell the roam freely out the back, but they are escape artists and keep going next door hahaha.
Naughty bunnies I must say.

I’ve got a support worker this arvo but we are going out. But things are starting to look up.

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@Fluttershy1 I’m really glad to hear you’ve got your bunnies there with you too, they sound like little troublemakers but in a very sweet way

It’s also good to hear things are starting to feel a bit more up for you, even after such a tough stretch.

I’m actually just heading off shortly, but I’m glad you were able to reach out and connect here before I go. I hope your time with your support worker this afternoon goes okay and gives you a bit of a break from everything.

Take things gently today where you can

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Hopefully I’ll catch you around @Nala2022 - I’ll have to share some photos of my troublemakers when I can get photos of them hahaha I have 3 of them…

Lola, she’s a indoor bunny

angel & patches are outdoor & the troublemakers who keep escaping. Gotta make sure everything is always covered with them.

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So you're with your parents again in the bungalow? @Fluttershy1

Are the okay with you staying? I remember you saying that you had to leave before. Hope you're okay.

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I’m with mum & step dad & bro @tyme - I can lock them out, it’s my own sanctuary, I couldn’t keep living where I was it was too much for me in the end.

like it’s not perfect but it will do for the meantime if you understand where I am coming from.

I’m safe here, I’m not on edge etc.

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Hai @MissGremlin - hope your going ok,

my table is abit up and down had some anger and tears, nearly finished packing for my admission but debating if I should take my lucky stars or not, or if I just take my diamond art & word searches. Not sure what I wanna take.

am safe.

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Hello @Fluttershy1 sweet, I'm sorry things are a bit up and down. It's understandable with how things have been recently and having your admission tomorrow. If it was me I would take all of those things, in fact they are actually all things I have packed in my hospital bag just in case.

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@MissGremlin @tyme @Nala2022 @TAB @Appleblossom @Jynx @AuntGlow - 1st day in Parc, been like a roller coaster but I have learnt alot and taken away a lot, had DBT this morning, this arvo we had free time then we had another group which was awesome called the dopamine menu and we learnt about what’s good and quick and easy to access, then mains that are longer than a hour, things you can do while doing other tasks. All different things for the dopamine menu.

did some painting also and I’m wearing it still, had a laugh about that, had dinner that was real yummy, went through the rest of my admission paperwork with a CMHP. Then went back to painting, just finished painting and I’ve just came back to my room to have some chill time before handover to overnight staff and get my night meds, I’ll do some word searches while I wait, hang out here aswell.

also met with the psychiatrist, not to sure about them because they bought up a lot and all that, they also bought up my eat*ng dis*der which I admitted to, so I’m being monitored over that. Things are just busy.

but also didn’t get much sleep last night I was tossing and turning, getting fustrated.

so it’s been a very interesting but productive day here

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