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Cuddlebears Space

CuddlebearSenior Contributor

Cuddlebears Space

Hello everyone I’ve made a space here.

I’ve been having a really rough time. I have experienced a lot of trauma and abuse since childhood. I’ve been on forums for a while now and thought to start a thread so that my journey and anyone that cares to see how I’m going and offer support or advice can find me here.

I have complex ptsd, anxiety and severe depression with anhedonia. I’m currently tapering antidepressant and it’s been brutal.

I am really struggling everyday and can’t find ways to feel better. I’ve tried so many things.

I am having daily panic attacks, my body shutdown and I am so lonely with very little support. There’s a real heavy darkness around me I feel so unloved and worthless. I can’t do basic things like shower, eat, clean and going out is very very hard. I have no purpose or meaning though I try to create it but nothing works.

More recently I’ve experienced passive SI and sometimes more active. The tapering I believe has caused these symptoms. I’m safe.

Im finding it hard to write this all up. I hope it gives you some insight. @MissGremlin @AlwaysMyself@Chasingsunsets

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DogMan79Senior Contributor

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Hi @Cuddlebear

How cut off from the outside world have you been in wren? I've never been inpatient. But as I understand it, different facilities afford you different levels of freedom

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DownMoreThanUpSenior Contributor

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@Cuddlebear

Great seeing you back in one piece. i hope they looked after you well?

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TABSenior Contributor

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You made it @Cuddlebear good to see you again 😘

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ChasingsunsetsSenior Contributor

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@Cuddlebear, so great to see you back lovely. I am glad you are holding on to hope you matter my friend, you got this 🫶🌻

what were some of the positives of your stay there?

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Nala2022Moderator

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Welcome back @Cuddlebear 💛

It sounds like you’ve been through such an incredibly difficult time, and I’m sorry you’re still feeling so unwell

I can imagine adjusting to being home and keeping track of all those appointments feels overwhelming. Please be gentle with yourself and take things one step at a time. We’re glad you’re back whenever you feel up to being here

I’m glad there’s a little glimmer of hope there, even if things are still really hard. I hope you’re able to keep hold of that glimmer and that things become a little easier as you adjust to being home. Sending you lots of care 💛

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ENKELISenior Contributor

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@Cuddlebear I've been wondering where and how you've been. I won't overwhelm you, you're in my thoughts and prayers as you continue to heal. Thanks for letting us know what's been happening xo

I am so glad you've had positive assistance with WREN.

Much love and hugs 💐💜🫂

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JynxModerator

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Thank you for the update @Cuddlebear it's good to hear from you! Wishing you well and sending healing thoughts your way <3

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CuddlebearSenior Contributor

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Hello @DogMan79 How are you? I had some freedom there. I was not in good shape to be in forums. I’m still struggling now to be honest. I’m out of ideas of what I can do.

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CuddlebearSenior Contributor

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@DogMan79 Hello how are you? I wasn’t totally cut off. Just have been so unwell even getting on here was a big struggle. A lot of things we couldn’t do or have. I’m really struggling since discharge. It’s been like dropped back to where I was.

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CuddlebearSenior Contributor

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@Jynx Hello lovely how are you? Thank you. It’s been really hard being back home. I wasn’t well enough still but they sent me home anyway. It’s a shame. I was really trying to improve.

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