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@Captain24 Very quick to get you on medicines then nothing there when you need to change them cause of side effects or don’t work. I ended up with serotonin toxicity & now protracted withdrawal. I’m worse and public psychiatrist stuffed it up badly. I’ve become a shell of who I was. They don’t even give you access to proper therapy. Without it medicine wont magically heal. Lost complete trust & will never trust public ever again. All my issues come from external stuff that's happened.Hence medicines are not doing a good job. And I’m still tapering. A cross taper. I have no psychologist or psychiatrist. I’m like a Guinea pig. Are you finding the meds helpful?

@AuntGlow Honestly I don’t even know what I need anymore other than to feel better even some relief. I’m safe but I’m really not doing well. Absolutely nothing brings any relief whatsoever. I’m so sick of being alone at home. No family or friends. It’s just so hard being like this on your own.

@Chasingsunsets Yeah that Russian roulette in mental health meds is a disaster for people. And there’s literally nothing in public heakth to support the person. I’m sorry you know it well too. It seems to be a really big issue.

I have never been in the public system @Cuddlebear. so I guess I’m lucky. I’ve been in twice and both were private and voluntary.

Do you have a GP that is helping. It sounds so dangerous on your own. I had support and it was hard. There is no way I could understand what was going on in my mind when coming off it without help. Who took you off it? Was this because you were in the public system? Sorry so many questions. I’m actually really concerned.

No medication takes the edge off things but you have to put in a lot of work to try and start to heal. I feel like medication is the crutch to get you walking again but without physio you won’t ever walk.

I do find my meds helpful. Some days I just don’t want to take them anymore as there is just so many. I also get to the stage where why bother they aren’t working anyway. I did cold turkey it once and it didn’t end very well! Never again! I couldn’t imagine what it would be like without them.

Sorry @Chasingsunsets i missed this. The tag didn’t come through. They are really detailed and it is very time consuming. Depending on the time I’m able to spend on them it can take a couple of months. I’m waiting for mum to send photos of the ones she wants done for Christmas so I can’t start them and have enough time!!

What’s your diamond art of?

Of course, I can only imagine how much you're needing things to feel okay right now... and feeling like nothing brings relief would be so exhausting and painful. I can hear that feeling connected and supported would help a lot right now. I know that we can't be there in person, but know that your forums family are always here for you, okay? @Cuddlebear

Have you been able to access Recovery Club at all? I am wondering if this could offer another layer of support? 💛

@AuntGlow Hello lovely. How are you? I’m still so unwell bunny.

does recovery club have the live zooms back yet? That’s what helped me the most.

Hey @Cuddlebear

How are you going?

@Captain24 Hello lovely. How are you? I wanted to say yes they sent me home alone for taped. It’s been brutal so far. I’m really just unwell. I am not better had no relief since we spoke on weekend. How about you? Are you at work this week?

Hey @Cuddlebear

Im being gentle with myself today. I’ve walked the dogs and spent some time sitting on the grass in the sun. Iv just dusted my house and I’m about to do the ironing and then I’m done until my psych appointment at 2. I’m feeling like I have managed to look after myself well this morning.

Ive got this week off work as I needed a mental break and reset.

Im sorry you are not better and still struggling. I’m here to talk if you would like.