The me no one knows - SI warning

@Cuddlebear honey I am so sorry that things are so crappy at the moment for you. Life is hard enough, without these added extras on top. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
I know what you mean about your daughter not being with you always, it's hard being alone and struggling.

For what it's worth, I am lifting you up in my prayers and anything specific you want me to pray for let me know.

I am on a study break right now and have to get back to it shortly but will be around later this afternoon, well evening for the east coast.

Thinking about you @Cuddlebear

@AuntGlow Hello lovely how are you? Thank you for information.

vasculitis is a different disease. I have peripheral artery disease.

Im aware of limbs for life. They don’t have a peer support in my area. But they provide information and just have an online group you can ask questions.

NDIS too all my psychosocial supoorts away. There’s nothing I can do. I do not have the spoons to take them to court. It would cause me to not cope at all.

I am really struggling to get access to supoorts as the services have hekp for mild moderate short term.

im so stuck. I am really in a bad mess. I am in constant panic with overwhelming feelings and despair. The forums people understand. That I really appreciate.

@ENKELI How are you? How is your study going?

Thank you for thinking of me. I’m really in a bad state and appreciate your messages and prayers. I also thank you for caring enough to respond 🙂

@Captain24 Thank you. How are you? Are you doing ok?

Hey @Cuddlebear

Hope things are going as ok as possible for you?

Im struggling pretty badly and I now have a dog with diabetes so that’s taking a lot to adjust too. Everything just seems too hard right now. But I guess that is life with mental illness. Can only pray that one day we will be stable.

Oh @Cuddlebear i'm so sorry. That is such hard news from the vascular surgeon about your right foot/leg and the medications for dental surgery. But i am glad the left leg healing went well - that gives hope for any future surgery needed that it can also go well, even if its not good to need it of course.

I'm so glad your daughter and friend are supportive, even if they cant be there every day. I so wish i could give you my phone number so that you could text or call when in a panic and needing to talk it through to help regulate

I know i'm not allowed to, but reminding you i care and would offer it if i could. That way it wouldnt matter how busy between appointments or overwhelmed with emails i were - you'd be able to "cut through" during those really hard alone times to reach me.

I wish i knew what more to say. 🥺

@Cuddlebear i dont know what the process for it is, but it sounds like an NDIS plan/funding review would be beneficial. But from your comment re: next step would be taking them to court, i'm guessing you have already tried this path in the past 6 months? 🥺😢

I am concerned by the decline in your wellbeing over the time i've known you here - i say that with love and care, not with judgement! I say it because i can see how the withdraw of the MH support team services has meant your only available professional MH support is gone, and with worsening physical health too that your need for MH support for adjusting to the changes in physical health are also increasing.

I know NDIs dont fund MH treatment, but they do have ability (when approved) to fund "behavioural support" which i would hope could include counselling with regard to acceptance and coping with your declining physical disabilities?

I'm aware how things are framed to NDIS as to how they are a "support" and not "treatment" is really key. And frustrating lol.

@Cuddlebear @Captain24 @AlwaysMyself

It feels like this is no longer my thread.

due to this Im moving on.
I don’t stay where I don’t feel I belong

@Cuddlebear
Don’t know if you have seen my recent posts on your thread. Knowing you have your own thread I thought that was best place to chat with you, appears I’m wrong

I was tagged so I responded. No one actually owns a thread. If that’s the way you feel then that’s fine. I won’t be back.